10 days no PMO 0 days no junk food 0 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 1 9 day streak. 62 days no posts on Facebook. Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy. Prayed my litanies. Daily consecration Czestochowa prayer card. Talks with God and Mary. Tired today. I am accustomed to nights. I had to be up at 6:30 to go to an orientation for my job starting next week. Been struggling more with urges today. I am handling it ok. I feel really tired. I wonder if I am not going through some sort of withdrawal. I decided to not go Uber because I feel just too worn out. Maybe a good sleep will do me good. Going to stay up all night here and get back on a night schedule since I am going on nights at my new job. I am connecting with people. I am feelings things around women I have never felt. I am comfortable around them. It is wild man. Just talking with them makes me feel stuff. They react differently to me. The girl who was giving the talk at the orientation gave me way more eye contact than any of the other men in the room. I got a look from a girl at the drive through the other day that I don't recall ever getting. I am not going to make the mistake of making that my motivation to stop this time. Every time I have made long streaks, my noticing the changes in girls behaviour around me started being my motivation and quickly caused me to fall. I am quitting for God. I am quitting for others(PMO steals my true self from them) and I am quitting for my well being. The new attention from the opposite sex is nice, but it can't be my reason to stop. I am tired, but I feel good. There is a fullness in me. A feeling of emptyness is gone. I had a beautiful moment with God last night. I remembered my longings in the past of wanting to be laying beside I girl. Those feelings came back. I realized that hole that was there can only be filled with God. My soul was then filled with such consolation and sweetness. Like I had never experienced before. It felt like I was being gently held. My deepest longings were filled. I was in heaven. Talked with my brother on the phone. I felt 100% comfortable around him. I usually feel nervous around him. My parents too. I talked to them. I had a wonderful conversation with them. This is so great. God is giving me back to my family. Porn stole me. I don't resent that. It is what it is. I can't change that now. I can only try to remain humble and hope that God continues to bless me with sobriety. I need to be grateful for my 10 days. It is a gift. After everything I have been through, any day of sobriety is a gift. Thank you God.
Guys question please. It is Normal during flatline to have some spikes idea about girls and sex ? I am 4 days flatline with 0 urge 0 erectile but today these ideas hit my brain randomly, hit me hard. regards
I’ve been on flatline for 2 months! 0 erections but crazy urges for girls especially at the gym. It’s wierd my desire wants women but my d*ck doesn’t want to know and is still crying over no porn. Welcome to flatline
Wow exactly 100% same situation as me, gym, 0 erection, wants women sex and ideas hit me hard. But why the brain stop the erection completely during flatline ????!!! In addition, I had a dream yesterday that I turn on the PC and enter a porn website then I said inside the dream NO! and I wake up, but I had moderate erection when I wake up.
I started quitting coffee on day 33 I think. It's rather difficult for me to quit everything. Today I'm on day 8 no coffee. Next will be sugar. Some people may do a cold turkey of everything. It may work. The choice is always yours.