Checking in, Day 4. A couple of hours ago I was going through some old photos uploaded to my Google photos app, when I accidentally found some explicit pictures of one of my ex girlfriends from a few years ago. I haven’t opened the app up since before I started My Nofap/Semen Retention Journey. You don’t understand the struggle I was in and I was really very close to fapping (but thank God I did not give in to my urges and I didn’t edge or relapse) but I stopped myself. I told myself “I can’t do this, not again this time. I can’t break my streak, if I break my streak I’ll lose one week of progress which is the longest streak I’ve ever done in my life so far (Now 8 days). I have to keep going and push myself and stay strong, you got this don’t give in to your stupid urges. You are stronger than that.” I closed the app, used the NoFap Emergency button and looked up Nofap stories on Reddit. I thought about Nofap videos, the Nofap forums, the people on Nofap/Semen Retention and the support everyone on this lifestyle brings. I remembered my purpose on this Journey and what better things I can (and should be doing with my life than peeking at Ex GF’s pictures). I think I’m gonna delete these apps right away after writing this so it’ll keep me away from temptations and relapses. When you really think about it all these porn websites and bad websites and bad things are all just the Devil’s work and also our minds trying to keep us looking at it. And we have to be strong, keep going day by day and fight the Devils and fight our minds. Remember, we are warriors and we are Soldiers fighting the enemies for freedom! Freedom at last!
Day 29 furthest I've ever got, I've never been more determined in my life, will not let my guard down, keep going everybody
Check in Day 1. Still manageable. Don feel a surge yet. Guess it's still too early to tell. But really enjoy not having to resist the urge when it comes.
Check in Day 17 PMO is a consumption pathway. It lends itself to gluttony. Much of modern society, even the poor, spend their lives in consumption and in suffering because they are focused on what they want to consume in the future, or how unfair it is that someone else is consuming something they can’t afford. This creates weakness. People become soft. In their body and their mind. Then they seek to consume media narratives that justify, excuse or even celebrate the slothful and bloated lifestyle. Pmo, social media, political narratives that lack nuance, food, video games, clothes, the latest this and the newest that. This community of Spartans, we soldiers, are on a different journey. Everyday I see more and more of my own softness. My own weakness. A lot of people wish they had my physique because a lot of people are soft and weak. I have not been as disciplined as I can be so I am not as chiseled as I can be. A lot of people will say don’t be so hard on yourself you look great! But I have a higher standard Spartans. I have a higher standard. We all have our own lives to live. But let us all live not for passing pleasures, but for glory! Let us rise! Freedom is not in having limitless consumption, freedom is in being disciplined. To freedom!!