Day 2. I stumbled on some porno comic on my phone cause all the actual porn was blocked. I didn't jerk it which i'm super proud of because I was horny as fuck. I deleted it and put on parental controls on google play so at least there's a block there. I've also been very productive today because I have blocked all the procratination apps on my phone like reddit so I had plenty of time.
Keep going you king. As long as you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and learn from your mistake. No failure is a failure.
Guys it’s been a week. Apologies for not posting more frequently just been a little busy. The week has been ok just having a few urges today and figured I should post. Remembering some old toxic behaviors but need to push through. I need to accept the urge. I just need to not act on it. Hopefully I make it through
Well I went back to my old routine of lifting heavy and I leaked while doing it, but I noticed I really lost a lot of strength deviating away from it. Like lifting light and focusing on form has its advantages, but heavy compound exercises I responded much much better too. Back then I could do 190 with mild struggles and now I'm struggling to bench 170. Oh well muscle memory will kick in if I get enough nutrients but I kinda get turned on by the thought of getting bigger so I have been really restricting calories. So I do kinda think it is a fetish caused by psychological insecurities(naturally small appetite, being bullied a lot, naturally small too). I don't really know why it does feel good, but it really doesn't bring the sense of disgust or shame of doing a full pmo session of porn using hentai, or even just touching my penis. It's just awkward really.
6 days done.i have really good nofap mindset right now. I downloaded the SPAM REMOVED - REPORT TO MODERATION website blocker, and has helped quite a lot.
Hello all! It's been an enormous struggle me over the past five years of really trying to quit with over 20 years of abuse under my belt. I have made it to 24 days once, and that's it. The past few days have been the worse with massive urges. I have to restart my counter today and will start with day to day again. Never in my life did I see myself at my age stuck in this situation. If I can get through March, then that would be a huge stepping stone for me.
Been off for a week also binged, was originally going to watch poem and try cut the escorts as that’s what will destroy my marriage and that has been working but I need to get rid of it all to retire the dopamine receptors and decrease deltafos so again day 1 for me too. I will be paying close attention to environmental triggers and thought patterns. Also I’m now aware that the first 7 days after stopping the dopemine craving massively ramps up sensitivity to question and triggers which is why it always seems worse trying to quit. And this can last for 4 weeks before your Brain starts rebuilding so that’s the goal need to get above 4 weeks
Urges still high. Missing old habits. Must push through. Day is almost over. You guys are my rock. We’ll get through this together