Accountability for All

You should do some reading about the withdrawal symptoms

 

Day 2. I did some yoga instead of giving in to an urge

 

Day 2.

I stumbled on some porno comic on my phone cause all the actual porn was blocked. I didn't jerk it which i'm super proud of because I was horny as fuck. I deleted it and put on parental controls on google play so at least there's a block there. I've also been very productive today because I have blocked all the procratination apps on my phone like reddit so I had plenty of time.

 

Hello All! Mind if I join this group as well?

 

Have to restart the counter. Ended up peeking like an idiot and didn't recover. Day 1 done.

 

Keep going you king. As long as you pick yourself up, dust yourself off and learn from your mistake. No failure is a failure.

 

Welcome

 

I relapsed again yesterday so back at day 1

 

Can I join?

 

Guys it’s been a week. Apologies for not posting more frequently just been a little busy. The week has been ok just having a few urges today and figured I should post. Remembering some old toxic behaviors but need to push through. I need to accept the urge. I just need to not act on it. Hopefully I make it through

 

Day 2 done.

 

Well I went back to my old routine of lifting heavy and I leaked while doing it, but I noticed I really lost a lot of strength deviating away from it. Like lifting light and focusing on form has its advantages, but heavy compound exercises I responded much much better too. Back then I could do 190 with mild struggles and now I'm struggling to bench 170. Oh well muscle memory will kick in if I get enough nutrients but
I kinda get turned on by the thought of getting bigger so I have been really restricting calories. So I do kinda think it is a fetish caused by psychological insecurities(naturally small appetite, being bullied a lot, naturally small too). I don't really know why it does feel good, but it really doesn't bring the sense of disgust or shame of doing a full pmo session of porn using hentai, or even just touching my penis. It's just awkward really.

 

Day 0 again. Oh well it was the longest streak I've managed this year. Never abusing my penis again.

 

Hello all!
It's been an enormous struggle me over the past five years of really trying to quit with over 20 years of abuse under my belt. I have made it to 24 days once, and that's it. The past few days have been the worse with massive urges. I have to restart my counter today and will start with day to day again. Never in my life did I see myself at my age stuck in this situation.

If I can get through March, then that would be a huge stepping stone for me.

 

Been off for a week also binged, was originally going to watch poem and try cut the escorts as that’s what will destroy my marriage and that has been working but I need to get rid of it all to retire the dopamine receptors and decrease deltafos so again day 1 for me too. I will be paying close attention to environmental triggers and thought patterns.

Also I’m now aware that the first 7 days after stopping the dopemine craving massively ramps up sensitivity to question and triggers which is why it always seems worse trying to quit. And this can last for 4 weeks before your Brain starts rebuilding so that’s the goal need to get above 4 weeks

 

Yeah post here anything you think will help you on your nofap journey

 

Urges still high. Missing old habits. Must push through. Day is almost over. You guys are my rock. We’ll get through this together

 

Day 3 done.