Day 6 & day 7 successful! Day 8 in progress. Just moved house and won't have WiFi for two weeks, this will definitely help with this reboot
Day 1 of this streak, in which my focus is to constantly increase self love and keep reminding myself of my determination to get rid of PM. I joined this forum 133 days ago. Of those 133 days, I was 122 days without PM. I reset my counter, because I'm in a loop where I keep peeking after about a week. I don't have any full relapses, since November I have had only one real relapse where I watched P for an hour and a half (mid-January). Right now, it's peeking for 15-25 minutes, mostly just watching or reading some very mild stuff, or touching myself to material that's not even really stimulating. I keep bending the rules like that, slipping for a short while before stopping myself - small stuff, but it's not okay. I rejoice in the huge progress I've made since 4 months ago, so I'm not beating myself up or being depressed. But I keeping leaving the door to P and the lonely desire that is related to M ajar, and that's not what I want. I am closing it for good.
Day 9 No M, Day 79 No P Don't get discouraged! Don't relapse just because you get stressed! I don't want to sound negative, but situation with the virus is going to get worse before it gets better! You need to cope with this! What country are you in? Advice: 1st of all, use the time before the lockdown to prepare - go to stores and get all the stuff you need - food, supplies, medicine etc. As for the Gym - I am in the same situation, country is in lockdown, no gym. This is not an excuse!!! Go get some Training Bands now, handles for them and some light dumbells!!! I can personally send you a few different programmes with Training bands at home that are very challenging!!! They are a great substitute for going to the gym!!! And you will learn a lot of new things while doing them. Other things you should do are self development! - read books, do some online courses, work on a project that you have not had time for!!! anything - of course enjoy yourself with whatever you can at home (NO PORN of course) but all the leisure things are more enjoyable after you have done some work! @VictoryIsOurs What country are you in that has a lockdown? I am in Bulgaria and we have almost complete lockdown and I personally am in quarantine, because one of my coworkers has the virus and they quarantined the whole company
I think my failure to really get rid of P has something to do with a curiosity about (pictures of) female body parts that is still there. If I'm on the internet and I see something that looks like it's an attractive woman or something related to eroticism, I click on it. It can be something totally decent, just some pretty woman fully dressed, so at surface level it's usually totally different than watching actual P. But if I'm honest to myself, it's not. Clicking on a picture of some attractive face is following the same curiosity as the one that lead me to P. It's following the same logic that makes women into objects that I can use to quell my anxiety, to somehow make me happy. I have to eradicate this type of thinking from my brain and stop giving into it even the slightest.
Day 8/90 No PM Day 417 at attempting this challenge Day 143 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
