46/90 The last couple of days were extremely difficult for me. I was very triggered and had a rough time keeping my mind away from fantasy. I struggled with so many thoughts trying to convince me I should just give up, even if only for a day. This is the first time in my life I've pushed passed that level of triggered/temptation without a relapse. I watched this video to help me deal with some of that: I'm in a much better place now and back to focusing on taking responsibility and working towards my future. I haven't been disciplined at all with my coffee intake. However, I HAVE gotten out of bed at 6:00am every morning. It took almost all week but I am now starting to feel the benefits of that. My body is adapting and I can feel my energy cycle stabilizing. Very good! Monday I plan to begin weaning back off of coffee. Hopefully, I have enough other systems in place in my life to support myself through the descent. All the best to all of you today!
Finishing Day 22/90, and soon to be Day 23/90. The last 24 to 48 hours have been pretty wild, but I'm finding that I'm able to understand my brain better and get out of situations that could be triggers. I think the best way of besting triggers and urges are to have as few as possible, and I've had success in that. Not that it's been easy, but it's been worth it. I'm starting to get really excited about seeing friends today and tomorrow, and then finally seeing my girlfriend the day after that so I have a lot going on. However, knowing myself, this is where I have struggled before and I need to keep my head down and remember I still have work to do. Cautiously feeling good about myself at the same time.
Day 20 Suddenly i feel tired, strange feelings but I don't have urges. Maybe flatline. I hope it's simple only a bad day. I met a girl, just friend, we had a convo and i felt like i couldn't talk and see her in the eyes. I seemed to be very tired. Even she noticed that and told me to go home and take a nap hahaha. Btw the absence of urges is relieving. Stay strong guys!! Good luck and have a great weekend!!
Day 40/90 No PM Day 490 at attempting this challenge Day 175 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: No caffeine or alcohol and reduced desserts Wow, in the 40's now. Hard to believe that I am almost half way through this challenge.
Hope you can jump right back on the nofap train. Remember this feeling. I remind myself of this feeling by going on the Relapse and Reset forum often. The next couple days will be hard, but you can do it, and you will feel better. Stay strong and be kind to yourself. Good luck!