45/90 Half way. I thought I'd be more excited but I'm actually just have a really rough day yesterday and today. Urges are hitting me pretty hard, which hasn't happened to me in several weeks. It's funny the thoughts that come into your brain trying to rationalize a relapse. In fact, it's even a little scary how LOGICAL your addicted brain can be in trying to get you to take a hit from the PMO bong. "45 days is a great streak! You can start over tomorrow. It won't make that much of a difference. You're already feeling urges that are too strong, you need a release and then you can start over. It'll be easier next time. You'll do better next time." Geez! That's not my goal! My goal is 90 days! Every step towards porn is a mistake. Even the slightest thought in that direction is NOT in line with our goals. I'm not trying to be hard on anyone, I know it's very difficult. I'm just trying to be clear with my own brain what is and isn't acceptable. Fishing isn't acceptable. Fantasizing isn't acceptable. Edging isn't acceptable. ANYTHING that's like porn is NOT in line with my goal and ANY STEP in that direction is NOT WHAT I WANT. Don't tell me otherwise, brain, you don't know what I need right now.