Day 6! Finaly my streak is going good. But it has been a rough start. After a long streak is hard to come back. And I accidentlly cut my leg with chainsaw. But it's all good now. I'm resting my leg at home and its going better every day.
Congrats man, well done Your post motivates me very much, thanks bro. I will keep fighting. Today is very hard for me, because at the night I saw a sexy dream, I feel urges today, but will not relapse and will keep going.
Day 0/90 Total clean days - 21 Total PMO - 21 Total P - 2 Total hours remaining - 2160 1st Goal - 7 days Days remaining - 7 Goal completed - 0 I relapsed today because I watched porn for an hour I didn't watch any video but I was surfing porn sites. But I relapsed because I was not able to handle my urges and gave in. My 7 days goal still remains and I will achieve it.
0/90 Relapsed today. Was not over P or thoughts, I did webcam sex with my friend/xgf. Although, what this difference is between that and P, in terms of the brain, I'm not too sure. I was confiding in her about my journey here and her talking to me about her desires and her Ming made me relapse with her. Still an improvement from me spending hours searching hard core P online. Beat my 3 day streak with a 12 day one and basically had no problems until I chatted to her. It's not her fault. It's no one's really. I've learned a lot these past 12 days and am feeling good about that, even now! I've deleted her number from my phone so I can't video call her. We've got email and we've agreed not to talk anything sex related for now. She's my best friend, she's really supportive. It's a slow progress and lessons are learned. I don't beat myself up about it. I'm pleased with how I'm doing. This community is really helping. Thank you all. Edit: convinced myself that i'd already relapsed, which was my excuse to watch the hard core stuff 'one last time'. it's always one last time ey, lol. No matter, much has still been learned. There isn't any point in beating myself up, i'm compassionate to others struggling through this, that compassion has to extend to ourselves, too.
Relapsed just before completing day 3 but i'm not giving up yet. 3 days is still a lot of the back of a pretty long relapse period so i still have hope. Let's try again day 0/90
Congratulations bromor!!! All the best to you moving forward. Ouch, that's horrible! So sorry to hear that. Get well soon my friend.
