Day 4, Good morning everyone! I hope that those of you who celebrate Christmas were able to enjoy the time with family and friends! Keeping strong on this streak. Best wishes to you all!
TITLE - Uruk – Hai Day 6/500 Longest streak - 28 Last streak - 4 Total PMO - 161 Total P - 30 Total hours remaining - 11836 Days remaining - 494 Challenges completed - 1 3 DAYS -✓ 7 DAYS - 14 DAYS - 21 DAYS - 30 DAYS - 45 DAYS - 60 DAYS - 90 DAYS - 365 DAYS - 500 DAYS - I have made a decision to feed the white wolf in me and not that addicted black rat. It's time to howl.
Day 121. Checking in Eventually you will have to come to an understanding that all that you need is within you. - Meditate - Yes, moments of meditation throughout the day and while running - Stay accountable daily - yes! - Study about the reboot - Studying more about life from a somewhat deeper perspective. - Take cold showers - not yet again - Challenge daily your excuses to pmo - Everyday while meditating and while talking with my wife - Follow a triggers prevention plan - I have been a little lacking in this department, but I see the movement of lust in the "background". I have been exploring videos with my my wife, not in any way sexual in nature, but the slightest of triggers is always at bay. - Get occupied. Work in your hobbies and dreams - have been burdened by grief and laziness - Practice physical exercise - Still running/walking with my dogs - Eat healthy - eggs, beans, ground beef, onions, bell peppers, celery and peanut butter to supplement my longer and longer runs. - Sleep well - Not so well last night.
This is almost similar to my last relapse. Out of the blue, never expected such a trigger and bam, after half an hour it's over. I consider these as similar to marks of past bruises. Whenever we see them, we are reminded of some really nasty hits/falls/injuries. That helps me stay vigilant. I'll pray for all of us today Check in
Day 67. I feel real better , I know the bad days can come in anytime and I need to put attention in any trigger but I feel good and with so much hope. so lets keep walking.
Day 20 complete! With rain and fog I enter the old village of Bree. This ties my longest streak in three years. It was a tricky day, though. Spent most of it feeling out of sorts, when I realized I hadn't taken time to just be quiet and focus my mind. I prayed a Rosary and it was so nice, really helped. Here's to three weeks tomorrow. @RiseToGreatness You continue to inspire all of us. We've got your back. Be sure to thank your wife!
Day 1.. I m sorry people i haven't been able to post that much after my longest streak of like 45 days ... And today is day one .. And good news is that I am over the external depression thing I had ... Cant thank god enough for that .... So I want to be the best version of myself ... I need to be more disciplined .. I need to be more responsible about my loge and my life goals... I can look back at 2018 and see how much I have grown and mature ...even if growth and maturity meant enduring the painful time... I am glad if it would make me more wise ...and all.... Anyway emotional rant is now over ... I really really want to do the best I can to improve my life to achieve my goals ... This year and the year before I was struggling with lot of mental heath issue anxiety ,depression ,rumination,ocd ,ptsd what not but I don't know how with the help of god I am over lot of these things... Now I want to focus on being the best version of myself ... I want to make this day 1into 100 day streak ...hopefully ...this is the last time I will be orc Will keep you all updated about my progress Ps - I really need to thank I guy in this thread who gave me advice regarding productivitity and studies I am so sorry I was not able to reply on time as I was going through extreme depression and literally had no motivation to do anything ...your message was very good .. Even though l have studied nothing but will keep your advice in mind Will tag him if I remember
Day 8 in progress! @RiseToGreatness, can you update my rank to Urak-Hai? Thank you! Hope everyone had a great Christmas!
Day 19. Need some advice today brothers. I laid in bed this morning having wet dreams and fantasizing. I am disappointed that I let it carry on for so long but I am happy to see my libido coming back strong. I will have to be more diligent in the future about spending too much time in bed. I think fantasizing is normal and in fact healthy but there is a line. The fantasies can become extreme and a way of your brain enjoying porn without actually watching it. In your experience do fantasies set you back in your progress? \\m//
Fantasies itself don't really set me back in progress, but having fantasies in combination with staying in bed too long often does. I've had it happen to me too many times. I begin looking at my phone and start fishing for small things to trigger me and it eventually leads me to wanting more and even though I want to stop what I'm doing, there's a big chance I'm going to relapse. So fantasies itself don't set my progress back. I think it's more the way I act on these fantasies.