35 days done. Meditated, online support group, talked with a recovery friend, went and helped my dad, worked, took dog for a walk...so I did some constructive things, and avoided porn today. The tricky thing is not letting that porn wanting momentum build up to the point where we justify it. It’s very slick, this addiction. Sometimes it’s just getting through one urge, doing anything other than porn, and get to the other side and see that we can do it. Keep going guys, don’t give up.
Hey guys I'm back, i didn't quit this challenge, wasn't able to post for the past days, been busy to my goals and school, school is making me feel bad again and theres gonna be exam on next week, I'm so tired, trying my best to keep up with this challenge, it seems i have a lot of catching up to do in this forum. Btw guys I'm on day 7. Idk if i can post here for upcoming days, if however i have time i will keep updating my progress here, goodluck guys. (100 points) Everytime i look at to porn,nudes,etc -5 point Everytime i masturbate -10 point Everytime i touch my genitals -3 point If my point hits to zero I'm going back to day DAY 7/90( Day 8 in progress) DAY 3[✓] DAY 7[✓] DAY 10[] DAY 14[] DAY 21[] DAY 32[] DAY 64[] DAY 82[] DAY 90[]
Day 19 Had sex with a girl I have been chatting recently. Sex was good - no PIED despite all the stress of the situation. Chick acted kinda crazy after that... anyway - this morning I definitely have the chaser effect and cravings but I am managing so far trying to keep busy Have a nice day guys!
36 days done...if I redirect my mind away from porn thoughts and do the right thing, I’m gonna get one more day...just today, get through today
32/90. My "sex brain" seems to be normalizing. It's weird how you don't necessarily notice the effect all the porn has had on you until its influence starts fading a bit. I feel more natural thoughts and feelings returning. Healthy ones, good ones. Like not just looking at women as fantasy objects, but as multi-faceted people, with thoughts and dreams and emotions. A subtle changes happens and they become attractive again not just for their bodies, but for their female "essence" in a way. I notice that I'm starting to feel "romantic" towards them again, not just lustful. And as part of this shift, I feel myself returning. I want to continue with the challenge, and see how things change as I continue to heal. Let's keep going, friends.
I feel good for not letting my lapse keep me down for less than a day. Closing in on day 2. 1 day at a time.