Today would have been 8 days since my last slip up with PMO but I fell into a pit of snakes when I started searching for something arousing. I ended up seeing porn and although the "real" stuff wasn't what I was looking for and I quickly turned away, I still am counting this as a step backwards since I was searching for something to arouse me. Surprisingly, I'm not all bent out of shape/on a self destructive rant to myself about how "dumb I am". Of course I'm bummed, but I feel encouraged and am increasing the blockers on my computers. Here's to the next 8, Cheers.
Congratulations on getting up without beating yourself up. We fall many times during our journey but the important part is getting back up.
Man after ejaculating 2 times today i feel so pathetic and a bit empty but i quirkly recomposed and standing in my fight against porn and masturbating addiction, i relapsed to rule34 2 times today I'm feeling that my spirit is emiting flames and light and i feel more powerful, stronger, miser, more calm and tranquility, etc
Man i looked nsfw a bit today and the most i look it worse gets, theres a scientific law about that called "murphy's laws" The First law says "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong." Or In other words in other words, pornography looks good at first sight and you find out more about masturbation and sex and you are fascinated by that and then you see a lot and spend hours in porn vanilla, you get tired of seeing vanilla porn and go to other types and dps of several days you get tired and need more fucked up fetishes and so on until you realize that this sucks and that fetishes are very dangerous for you
