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I am an porn addict. I am no longer ashamed to admit it. I've resented myself for years hiding this sickness from everyone I know, including the love of my life, whom I have a beautiful healthy and happy child with. This sickness was embedded into my life when I was far to young to understand...

Hey guys hope you doing well , today i decided to start my journey again but with more focus and a clear goal this time. The first nofap i did was in 2012 but back then i didnt know about nofap, the journey was approx 15 days. In those 15 days i really felt something amazing , people treated...

Hello Folks! Some words about my person and my journey. I keep it short and not too boring. Age is 38, male, browsing porn for many many years. Noticed a clear shift towards more extreme content over the years. Needed novelty in porn content and in partners and sex practises all the time. No...

I wanted to state that this isn't a cure, but It will help you greatly in the healing process. I want to give back to the world and god willing help at least one of you out there. As a preface, I started watching porn at the age of 10 and have been a chronic intense user for much of my life. I...

For context, I am Christian. I was in a conversation about faith and mental health, and I was asked specifically how renewing my faith assisted in my mental health (struggle with depression and anxiety). I did some reflecting and wrote a lot and thought I would share it here: I had been...

This is an inner-monologue about how to cope with cravings and what do after relapses I've just relapsed so I have a post-nut clarity right now. I want to emphasize this because it is the only time period in which I can express myself clearly. I really miss the time when I can enjoy little...

It is said, by the teachers of old, that one way towards objective morality is through the experiencing of remorse of conscience. In order to tell right from wrong, in an objective sense, one must follow their conscience. "Know thyself" is a familiar phrase that strikes a chord with this...

This thread is dedicated to my return to the journey of freeing myself from negative habits associated with my porn use. If you can relate to what I am saying here, any questions or comments will be greatly appreciated. Thanks for reading! My Past Struggles/History of Current Situation I would...

At this point in my life, every thought that crosses my mind is subject to question. I do not trust my thoughts anymore. I have been addicted to PMO (since 15 years) and now to weed (since 6 years). The combination of these two subtle but very potent escapes has brought me to a point where I do...

Hi all, I tried NoFap years ago when I sensed that I was losing control over my pornography habits, but that was short-lived and a lot has changed since then. I've been to SAA, worked with therapists, tried Fortify, etc. without much success. My longest clean streak dating back to 2020 was...

Listen guys I’m lonely too, so damn lonely I can’t even get it off my mind. I think of anyone else I know who says they aren’t lonely. I know some but they aren’t me and they aren’t you. The women they love or the children they have are not mine. These damn articles written online, a...

Created my account on February 2022. Relapsed many times until May 28th, when i started my journey effectively. And here i am. January 30th, 2023 8 months, 248 calendar days I slipped only 3 times within 8 months. And, this first 2023 no slip at all. After 9 years since 2014, now i say...

I am relatively new here and it's hopeful to see such a vast community of people supporting one another. I don't know how long I've had a porn addicition, but what I can say is that I noticed it about a year ago. But I have shown signs prior to that such as viewing more and more hardcore porn. I...

Hello My name is Amro Mustafa very pleased to be a part of the official community on the Nofap Website, After many long years of trying, learning, succeeding, and falling back again, I am officially sick and tired of myself, I am sick and tired that I don't have control over my own actions this...

Yo, I've been struggling for as long as I can remember to stop this addiction, and I've been on this forum before a lot of times too. First time I came here I was focused on getting of my PMO addiction for good but I couldn't get past two week stretches without relapsing again. This shit went on...

I’m 15. It’s my first time with nofap. I hope i will change.

Today I’m going to start this journey, I hope to succeed.

This week, “Is there hope for porn addicts?” was one of the most popular Google search terms in this genre. Clearly, a lot of anti-porn types are having a hard time breaking their habit/addiction, and some have lost all hope that change is possible. The following list is based on my personal...

Idk about any of you guys but every time post fap I have the most amazing realization about how porn and masturbation is evil and that I no longer want it. I happen lose this feeling a couple of hours after but I still have a dream. A dream that with enough mental training and sperm retention I...

To be satisfied with a little, is the greatest wisdom; and he that increaseth his riches, increaseth his cares; but a contented mind is a hidden treasure, and trouble findeth it not. - Amenhotep IV I think this resonates with me to a deep level. In our society that believes the pathway to...

It is well known that pmo destroys lives and steals futures. I've been pmoing for about 7 or 8 years to some pretty sick stuff, and have been on the road to quitting for about a year now. Over the course of the past year I've developed an anxiety disorder and have regressed in my social skills...

There is a woman in my life now who is very young and beautiful. We've known each other 5 years and only just now got together and it's on fire. She got in the car Friday night - we had seen each other since October 2019 -- pulled my face into hers with both hands, said "I fuckin' missed you!"...

Hello, before I start, I'd like to say that I'm a new user and only have a rudimentary grasp of the rules. I hope I don't break any rules by posting this thread. (I'll leave a TL;DR for those who are short on time...or are just lazy like myself haha.) Right now it's 2:34 AM and I'm once again...

Disclaimer - Not medical advice. I am not a doctor. This is completely anecdotal and my experience. DYOR! Consult a medical professional. TLDR: If you have to take 2 things from this, it is - There is always hope. You might want to try nootropics - especially Citicoline. Brief Intro - The...

Hello Everyone, Sorry for double posting here. My heart is heavy after relapse and I really wanted to reach out to the community about this particular topic. I know not everyone here is a Christian or religious but please feel free to chime in regardless. There is no denying that the benefits...

Today would have been 8 days since my last slip up with PMO but I fell into a pit of snakes when I started searching for something arousing. I ended up seeing porn and although the "real" stuff wasn't what I was looking for and I quickly turned away, I still am counting this as a step backwards...

Hello my fellow fapstonauts I am new to this site and found it has been an extremely helpful resource as I continue on my no pmo journey. More days than not the skies are dark clouded by the weight of suffering. Yet my will and purpose remain undaunted by the task. This road is full of bumps...

So here we are, relapsed again. A tissue full of cum in one hand, a tiny limp piece of meat in the other. Fuck this shit, i thought i slayed the dragon a long time ago but it still lives in me. This will be a story about falling down and getting up, because everybody does sometimes. Let me tell...

I'm wishing all of us here a New Year with the knowledge that we took the biggest step in our journey by admitting we had a issue with porn or masturbation and we have decided to do something about it. I pray that you find the courage and the strength and the accountability to have success...

Hello everyone, I wanted to share my progress here with the friends on this remarkable journey. So first let's start with some background, I am a 33 years old married guy with a severe PIED. I was introduced to porn when I was just 13 years old. So, imagine 20 years of continuous porn eventually...

I'm currently 24 years old and it feels like i have suffered great damage from porn. I became addicted to it 10 years ago. It never really felt like an addiction but it became a part of my life very soon. I was constantly struggling with anxiety and rejection in highschool so i have never been...

Hello friends, I was thinking, If I should really write here in success stories section or not! Here legends wrote about 2 years, 90 days, semen retention and 500 days and many many things. And here I am just completed my 30 days that too after long time. Then I thought leave about others, my...

Still do kind of. So much so I can't even write out all the details of my issue. The shame is so powerful I can't be entirely forthright with you here anonymously. I think I could admit it all to a therapist but I have no plans on seeing one. I mean I have admitted it before to one and it made...

Have you ever wondered, when did PMO gain control of my life? When did I lose my ability to say no? It is amazing how, little by little, this beast became the over-powering monster it is today. I think back to when I was shown my first magazine, and then it went to stealing them because I was...

I've been in fighting this addiction for 3.5 years. The first time I stopped, I did hardmode for 50 days. It was easy. I thought I wasn't an addict, so I tried relapsing. Worst decision of my life. Not immediately, because after that I also had some good streaks. 125 days, 166 days, 70 days...

This is so fucking important and I have failed so many times because I didn't treat myself well. Our addiction isn't shameful, it's not something to hide or feel bad about. This will only hinder your progress and make you withdraw yourself from other people. I recently started seeing a therapist...

Hey guys, I read of many who lose an erection within seconds after stroking (incuding myself). I mean, without stimulation (viewing porn or having sex), how long does a full erection last, when is it at 50% etc? To the recovered, can you share from your experiences how long your erection lasts...

I'm finally coming to the realization that I'm in this journey for the long haul. Ive been porn free for about 1 year and I have clearly seen improvement with my PIED but still not enough for sex again. I went from being able to have sex to nothing downstairs. I now realize that I brutally...

First of all, I want to offer encouragement and hope to everyone here on this forum and trying to make a difference in their lives. I thank my Lord Jesus for seeing light in darkness and giving me the strength to write about this. There's a bit of detail missing as I want to focus on the main...

My fingers are crossed since less than 48 hours I’ll reach my Big 90, thus I found myself obliged & honoured to share my experience of these undoubtedly incredible & fantastic days of NoFap. I praise Lord for giving me a chance to reach this plank. Lessons, that I’ve learnt: Know your...

Hey all just thought I'd post to provide those struggling with some positive results. I'll keep it simple. Background: Suffered from mild to moderate PIED although ED pill would work. My main problem was DE. I was unable to orgasm with a partner for years (25yo). I also believe that performance...

Hey guys. I'm a 23 years old man. English is not my first language, sorry if I did mistakes. I was a porn addict for 6 years. Almost all the porn I've watched was femdom. It damaged many aspects of my life. But last year "I saw the light" in Nofap. Now, I want a normal respectful relationship...

Hello everyone, I hope ya"ll having a great day. I hope the journey is going smoothly for ya. Well, what can I say mine ain't smooth and the path is full of traps and pits. everytime I do good and have a good streak I fall and fall bad. got stuck into that rabithole forever and my relapse take...

It would be my second but the bills seem to say no. .. It's taking me long to accept this, I don't want to accept it. Arrgh

It was difficult to get the courage to write this post and accept that i have failed myself. i broke my progress and nearly stooped down to another low phase. Not going to gym regularly, watching random movies and series, wasting time on p**n etc I made several plans and failed them. I could...

Greetings from Czech republic, it is already 3 days that I think about writing short story about me here on nofap forum. For those that are trying to stop obssessive masturbation or watching disturbing porn videos or pictures I want to say that just to stop isn´t the ultimate way for the most...

I know it's only Day 2 - however I am feeling positive, feeling like I've hopefully turned a corner. I've implemented Blocksite and locked down internet access, given my router away for the time being while I create a bit of "space" between myself and the addiction. I've given custodianship of...

Now let's be honest, I'm just some guy on the internet to anyone who reads this, but I want to share this idea for those who truly want to reach their goals in life. We all know that life is so much more than trying to beat an addiction. I think it would be sad if we let that part of life...

Hi i am a normal college student. I need a bit of your help guys on a few things. 1) I don't think that i am a porn addict, but then again I think that every addict says that he is not a addict and is in control. Can you please help me know that i am a addict or not. 2) I sometimes feel that i...

Hello everyone, 30 year old here, I finally made the step to create an account here, since I do have a serious problem. A short history of my porn addiction I have a (rather rare) fetish. It does not matter which one and I rather keep it to myself, it's NSFL. (EDIT: see below) However, this...

If you have failed many times in ending this Porn-Masturbation habit, then do read this story of mine and I hope you'll be all set to get rid of this addiction. To start with, I am 23 years old male and started watching porn and masturbation at an early age of 12. I would punctually masturbate 2...

Hi Guys! This is Daniel, an ex-porn addict. Reading your stories made me realize how we're all struggling with the similar addiction, that completely alters our lives beneath the surface while of course makes us feel freaking good, makes us feel like real alphas and true men - for a couple of...

It’s been 2 years since I last dated or was interested in a girl due to my severe porn addiction, which started when I broke up with my gf. Even though I did kiss a several few and there, I was not interested in them. I am 19 BTW Around 3 weeks ago I met this beautiful girl which I really liked...

What’s goin’ on guys, My name is Shestakov (sort of) and I have been trying to quit P seriously for about a year now. I am a non-denominational Christian and have been walking with God since last July (2018.) The longest streak I was able to hold was about three weeks, although it wasn’t the...

So first things first: this is the longest streak I have ever upheld. 57 days today. And emotions are coming up that are absolutely overwhelming. Profound grief, unbelievable depression, wanting to die, racing thoughts about racing thoughts, fighting thoughts, looping thoughts, an inability to...

It's been a long ride... tomorrow will be your last day together with me... I know, I know ... you won't be gone completly but... that's okay :) Thank you... for trying to protect me... I know you never wanted to harm me in any way. You were there when I felt alone... Thank you... but you know...

I am a 27 year old woman. i need to get into uni this year. I can't wait any longer. it is time for me to become the person I want to be and exploit the potential i know i own. also for my reboot, I used to relapse after failing at something I am not risking relapsing now but I feel I need to...

Hi everyone, 30 something male here, struggling with this thing. I've used the site before,but I keep falling back and kind of tired of these cycles, where I go for a few days and then get back to a masturbation binge again and then end up feeling like utter crap. I think this thing has ruined...

So there's a couple problems here. This childhood friend of mine is my older sisters best friends, Little sister. She's 17 and I'm 18. She's religious and so is my family. They wouldn't let me date her and neither would my family. I love this girl though. My family said I can go over to her...

Hey there! Although I don't suffer from "porn" addiction I suffer from something just as bad if not worse. I masturbate to pictures of instagram models and it's been getting increasingly worrying (from having to see an always greater amount of pictures to start being aroused to not even getting...

hiii back guys i passed 14 successful day with out sexual things i discoverd a very effective solution to get out of sex thoughts or eny thing els when the thoughts come to you try to moltiply a 3 numerical number to another 3 numerical in your mind it just get 1 min but your mind will clean...

Hi! I'm David. I just lost my excellent job when caught in PMO. I've tried to stop before, with little (no) long term success. I have been using porn for at least 30 years, and would very much like to stop. I'm hoping that the recent personal and professional set back will inspire me to stop...

Started to notice the feeling of strength and power today. It’s been years since I’ve been sober this long from porn/pmo, it’s been 15 days. Eating cleaner, feeling a sense of calm and purpose in my day. I’m so used to the shame, sadness, and anger that this is a welcome change. My addiction is...

Hi fellow fapstronauts, I'd like to share a thought that crossed my mind while my depression and anxiety deepens on daily basis. I've been in monk mode for 4 months now and one thing became clear to me. Abstention removes blisters covering your mental wounds. Unaddressed problems resurface and...

Male, 22. For the past 12 months, I've started realizing the my porn addiction (10+ years) was the root cause of all miseries in my life. From the past 6 months, I've been trying to quit but failing again and again. The longest streak I could achieve was 7 days. I've created a nofap account way...

Hey guys, I just did 45 days and lost my drive and will to continue, I'm still holding on to the past and I have to break that. I'm no giving up now, I dust my boots and continue knowing I having a family I share the same ideals with online. Overall NoFap is a good thing and I had a few...

I had been doing PMO for more than 10 years now. I look back at all those hours lost and all the things I could've done with my life. I don't know how bad it was in the beginning, I assume very mild, I was just a kid. I only remember it eventually became a daily occurrence probably 7 years ago...

I am a seventeen year old kid, who has gone from living the best life I possibly could have, to being the lazy ass-hole freaking dip-shit. I am always taking everything in a playful way and am not getting serious. This year was, well a pretty important year for me in my life because it was in...

Hi ,Till Yesterday I was a prisoner in the hellish prison of ma******tion. I was hopeless. I felt my life will end sorrowfully due to this evil. This is because when I was 14 year old my friend urged me to see porn. And it became an addiction. Then after some time I learned how to masurbate. I...

Hi there, I'm new to this. I've been struggling with my porn / addiction to sexuality since I was 12 - I'm now 28. Over the years my addiction has grown stronger and I continually shame myself and let myself down, conciously relapsing giving myself reasons as to why its ok to PMO. For a long...

Hi there, I’m here to once again go down the nofap path. I’m two days in and just avoided a reset. Had issues in the past and made it 50ish days (stopped counting tbh) before I had sex with ex. Newly single and scared about life and it’s stressing me out but here to say fuck all that! I’m gonna...

Hey what's up , I thought I'd give this a try. I have been struggling with PMO for many years. I would say I started at a very young age , maybe somewhere around 12 or so. I'm 26 now and I still have this demon on my shoulders. I have known about the benefits of NoFap for about 2 years or so but...

Hi everyone, I am new, so I am going to post something about me I have 20 years old and I have been doing pmo since 16 years old. Over the years I realized that it was something that I enjoyed and not at the same time. I got an instantaneous pleasure that disappeared fleetingly and in my case I...

I was addicted to porn for 5 years. It gave me severe social anxiety and made me a very shy person. Today, i have completed my 3 months of NoFap today. I strictly started to hate porn because of how it had affected my life and gave me social anxeity. I also started going to the gym 3 days a...

So here is what I come up to. So when someone is addicted there are two sides of the addictions one which for no addiction ,for freedom ,love , and living life normal life other one is about addiction and bad habits , using bad substances,living not productive life ,being anti-social and...

Successfully completed NNN with a lot of encouragement. Of course my friends thought I was just in on a meme but it obviously meant a lot more than that. I had been Nofap for a week before and had been feeling amazing, signed up for school, job interviews and talking to women casual and...

I got addicted to porn at around 14 maybe? Told myself it wasn't a problem but I was lying to myself the whole time. After suffering from depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts for a few years, I feel so much happier and love myself now. I recently found God again which gave me new hope and...

Hello fellow Fapstronauts! This is my first time creating an account here but I've been frequenting this forum for about a year, I never felt the need to create an account here but reading through all your stories, struggles and most of all your successes helped reassure me that there was...

Here is my personal guide, that I have used and are still using to recover and develop myself into the person I know I am and can be. I will most likely be posting more in this cathegory; 1. Watch the ‘movie’ “E-motion” - it will change your life. Big words, I know. Everyone I’ve shows this...

Hey Guys, I am new to NoFap and have been addicted to pornography, masturbation along with other bad habits for over 10 years.. I feel like stopping is impossible, even going one day makes my mind go crazy. What are some simple things you do during the day that make you forget about porn, or...

I need to vent so much. happy that nofap exists and on here people can understand me. i feel a lot of grief now. few days ago i was about to relapse due to an emotional disappointment and i just wanted to get drunk, hurt myself mentally in every way possible. i just wanted to punish myself...

Guys, it's taken me a lot of time and thought to summon the courage to write this confession. Overview: I am a 33 year old male who has been indulging in pornography and masturbation (to varying degrees) since I was 14 years old. I never really realized how big a problem it was until recently...

Oh very been here before. I’m 27 and had been a porn addict for the last 7-8 years. Unlike most I was a let comer to the PMO world and I had been an addict since. I have tried nofap before multiple times and my Kong’s streak hasn’t been more than 30 days. I have on myself, always depressed and...

Is it possible to completely break out of this addiction and be like we were pre-addiction? Or will we always be addicts, just in control of our addiction and triggers, but essentially could relapse if our determination, resolve and awareness decreases even one iota?

Eighth day of Nofap. I wrote this following post to let my fellow fapstronauts know that, if they are feeling this way, they are not alone. Sad, lonely, angry, depressed, anxious, feeling ugly, unconfident, broken, worthless, like a failure, or any word for that matter that can describe the...

Hi, everyone! Been on here a few days but figured I should introduce myself - I'm a 28 year old from Sweden currently on the last semester of University styding social work, aspiring to be a therapist. In my spare time I write music and enjoy being creative, but the will comes and goes - which...

Im 27, Ghanain African, first generation American. I stress that last point as a result to the past 10 months i have been learning about myself to increase my spirituality. Alot of African Americans base their persona on the "Black" person you see on media outlets and dont understand its...

Hi, Currently I have no sense of emotion towards doing this which is very odd and hurtful as well, but I know that's because of the addiction so I will try to write as much as I can to let you guys know me better. At the current age of 16 (I feel very dwarfed by all you older fapstronauts)...

After years and years, I finally decided to stop altogether with porn and masturbating over it... Im in my late 30s and although I never felt ashame for my addiction, it started becoming problematic when i started watching it at work, or have the urge whenever i was alone. Not having sex with my...

I just feel super empty and weird. I am trying to get myself healthy by abstaining from pmo, self-harm, over eating, and finding new ways to find a release like exercising but it's so hard to stay motivated. I truly want to stay in bed all day now. I'm also heading off to college in the fall and...

Welcome to the 30 Days of Affirmations Challenge! What is the 30 Days of Affirmation -CHALLENGE ? - The challenge is to log on here every day for 30 days straight and tell yourself something positive. - You will need to number your self affirmations sequentially until you reach the total of...

Hello all I started Nofap a couple months back. I wanted to leave my masturbation/orgasm/porn (whatever they are all the same thing) behind. It was easy at first but now its just impossible to do. I have binged twice and whenever I get back up, im always at square one. what do you guys...

Hey Fapstronauts, Just a disclaimer I have completed a 90 days PMO free around 6 months ago but on this cycle I am on just day 13 after a long period of relapse. Just clearing this up so that I can post in this forum, bearing in mind that I feel like my streak is just on 13 days hence the...

I had completed 65 days.. I was feeling happy during those days. I was occupied with work and kept myself busy. But I started reading about rebooting again, and suddenly one day relapsed and did it 4 times. Then again I ended up doing it once for two days. Dont test it friends, but believe that...

So I've been really struggling in school lately and I feel I'm kinda slow in learning. I'm new to the school system in this International School, and they don't use books but they all use laptops and maaan... they all type so fast. I just hope I can catch up. I thought this school was easy...

Hi Guys , I don't find 45 days challange thread and i guess many people like me needs it. So counter your days here and if you want you to share how are you feeling today?

Guys, I'm battling a gnarly porn addiction. Its as simple as that. I want to stop, I've tried to stop, I slip back into old habits. The truth is I don't know how to get by with out getting hits from porn. It Calms my nerves, but then it leaves me low. It bothers and hurts my wife, honestly...

This is something that Ive never done before, and with this I'm talking about writing a thread on the forums, even though I've been a self-proclaimed Fapstronaut for a long time. In any case, hi. Hope you've had a nice day so far, regardless of whether you got to add another day to your pmo...

Link to my first thread I've posted 23 days ago. https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/hello-new-fapstronaut-here.149850/ I've been free out of PMO for nearly two weeks now.I've also been practicing meditation for a month.And exercising for two months.I succesefuly quitted smoking and...

I just relapsed after 23 wonderful, odd, flatlining, PMO-free days. I don't plan on relapsing again, and I want to talk about how the gym has helped me get through this particularly difficult day. Clearly I have some work to do. But during those 23 days, I hit the gym. HARD. I ran on...