Accountability for All

Day 6

I am trying to meditate on my Dan tien. I’ve got to do something to get more energy to do things.

Skins doing ok as long as I stay away from people and do my things for it.

I stopped my urges by making sure nothing was rubbing against my genitals while sleeping. And doing Buddhist mantra chanting.

 

Day 24. Today I didn't studied anything just relaxed and watched movie and spent sonetime outside with friend. But still need to develop correct habits for success.

 

Day 97 in the books!!!

 

day 4

 

Cleanest 12 day streak. Keep at it all of you.

 

Day 0 - I had sex which is usually fine but I set Hard Mode this time around up to the 4th week mark. So, resetting to 0

 

Day 7

Mentors

Where there is no counsel the people fall. But in the multitude of counselors there is safety.

I now have a few good counselors.

 

feeling a lot of weird and difficult emotions, but i will not let them be the reason for a relapse.

Jesus loves you
peace

 

Day 17
Loosing too much time on the internet, need to improve that

 

Day 98 in the books!!!

 

doing okay over here.
btw how are y'all doing guys?!
@corylife @BlueLacuna001 @Marourag havent heard from y'all in a bit.

and keep at it everyone else! you all are doing so good!

 

I am glad that you have decided to be strong. My last relapses were bcoz I got highly emotional . It's a sign of growth.
Try to discuss those emotions. Try to understand those , why r u feeling like this ? I would suggest writing them down. It really helps.

 

aah guys, i peeked. i watched a nude gif of a model.
i feel sad about it, but i will not let it escalate into a relapse. and thats a promise.

 

Totally screwed up, and now getting over it....Relapse....feeling the weight of a lot of responsibility, job, money....which is usual, but also this wave of impossibility, and nowhere to go but dig my grave......so to porn of course....and nothing there except pain...
Sorry for my mistakes....I did handle 3 waves, but did not get outside for the 4th wave, just like last week, so this does teach me something....My antidotes work, however they do not work as well when I am in despair....so I must plan on handling this with the usual waves of temptation, but with despair, and I should probably include exhaustion, pain, hunger, dehydration headache, etc.....all the secondary causes....ok thanks for being here all...You help me so much...
I am doing a short retreat, and you will be in my prayers...Peace to you all....

 

day 30.
relapsed at 5:30 am .
from 12 midnight i was unable to sleep for 5-5and a half hours. so i ended up relapsing.

 

Day 99 in the books!!!

 

Day 2

 

Actually the blocker I used to use (applock) stopped working, I don't know why. But I use another one called blocker and it's really good.

 

Day 20: I'm feeling a lot happier without porn. And I'm grateful for this community.

I'll hit the mark of 30 days, without losing my current strike!

 

day 6