I was super busy yesterday with hanging out with friends I had not seen in about a year and then packing before what was supposed to be my move today (did not move today however as U-haul messed up our pick-up time and location). Anyway, today is day 9 and 15 hours and I graduated to Urak-Hai two nights ago. I trust that August will be completely clean when I take actions to live my best life, avoid triggers and develop healthy coping mechanisms when I am triggered. I know that I can make it through August clean, and when I do, I am considering restarting my counter to midnight August 1st, as it is/was supposed to be the first day of my new life. With that said, that would make day 24 of my current streak (August 16th), as the day I set as Hobbit day. However, so as not to demoralize myself, I will not reset until August 16th so as to remain at my current level at that point. If I reset today, I would be Nazgûl again, and I feel like that would set me back looking at my status at that point. Best, Mathman1994 (Edit: I will probably reset to day 20 on August 21st so that I do not change any of my levels for any of my challenges, as they all upgrade at day 30 or higher to the next status, and though I would only be one day away from Elf at that point, I would rather go back to day 20 at day 29, than day 0 at day 9)
Day 8 completed, I’m an Uruk again! Better watch out Boromir And I’d just like to apologise for ‘cheating’ in my previous streaks by announcing my change to Urukdom on Day 7 rather than Day 8, a mistake on my part that has now been amended
Day 0 It's a good run. 15+ days. I, however, realized that not watching p is not enough. For the last 15 days I didnt feel any different. Low self-esteem, feeling bad and sad all the time. I didn't even try to dabble in something in order to keep me busy, because I've felt depressed throughout the process. It was like I was doing that for nothing. I couldn't feel the benefits of Nofap. So I decided to go back to the original plan, no p and m. I don't think it's enough either to stop watching p or to hold semen. We should do them together in order to get the full benefit of Nofap.
Thank you guys for your support! In the bus today I looked at a random girl and suddenly I had a flasback of a porn scene. Later I thought about projecting porn from my phone to someone else‘s tv. But I came to my senses. Otherwise a good day, good mood and concentration. I‘m quitting I‘m not using! Tomorrow I will be hiking again. I‘m quite fit and calm these days. And I got rid of a lot of unnecessary stuff. But my addiction is still there, it wants to be fed and it‘s like screaming. So stay calm, you don‘t need to do much. Just do what seems to be right and don’t leave the path again. Everything’s fine! Nothing bad will happen to you, just go your way step after step and have faith. Day 2 nearly over.
You‘re not alone! Many of us know these binges very well. This is the full impact of highspeed internet porn on the human brain (for someone who can‘t control it anymore) Nevertheless we shouldn‘t mane excuses! Let‘s give our best to prevent relapses in general and specifically binges and extreme unhealthy or risky behavior! Even if it’s just a little bit (of improvement) All the best brother!
Day 4 complete! A moderate urge attacked me after dinner, but I was too focused on what I wanted to do this evening to give it any of my time. Plus, getting a call from my sister certainly helped. @rotten_tomato I agree with you! This isn't the sort of thing that ought to be half-assed. Good luck! Perhaps it should be, but that doesn't necessarily mean it will be. Don't put quite so much pressure on yourself. Do what you can, and a little bit more, every day. You'll get to where you need to be. This meeting doesn't have to keep any and all urges at bay--let it be one of those things in your life that draws you on with new, hopeful and healthy urges. I hope it goes well for you
62 days. Felt restless and slightly unfocused throughout the day. Did some walking during the day, and went for a run and did some push-ups later in the evening, and these things barely helped. Also had some quite strong urges in the evening but I didn't give in to them so they disappeared as always.