yeah, i already thought on that before. maybe i will try it someday. i once made a 3 day zen retreat and it was awesome, really inspiring and so different from regular life
Checking in brotherhood!! Good to see you all well and focusing on your recovery process. No relapses today, so congratulations to all As for me, feeling a bit foggy today, but i´m hanging in . The urges have reduced and are now lighter Have a great day brave Warriors!!!! Checking out Continuing with sympthoms of porn addiction. "Your brain on porn", page 58 "Here are some brain changes that show up in all addictions, whether substance or behavioural: (...) 2. Sensitisation, or an unconscious super-memory of pleasure that, when activated, triggers powerful cravings. Rewired nerve connections cause the reward circuit to buzz in response to addiction-related cues or thoughts – the ‘fire together wire together’ principle. This Pavlovian memory makes the addiction more compelling than other activities in the addict's life. Cues, such as turning on the computer, seeing a pop-up, or being alone, trigger intense cravings for porn. Are you suddenly much hornier (true libido) when your wife goes shopping? Unlikely. But perhaps you feel as if you are on autopilot, or someone else is controlling your brain. Some describe a sensitised porn response as ‘entering a tunnel that has only one escape: porn’. Maybe you feel a rush, rapid heartbeat, even trembling, and all you can think about is logging onto your favourite tube site. These are examples of sensitised addiction pathways activating your reward circuit, screaming, ‘Do it now!’"
Day 4 I am happy to continue my journey again after breaking longer streak. Just watching P for little time to get little pleasure. BTW Now I am weak in sense of my mind because my mind is hungry for dopamine now and these beginning days are difficult and important I know. So I will keep this continue this journey try to reach 500 days Mount doom to destroy the ring...
Day 2 of being an Orc, feeling stronger mentally every day. IT IS INSANE HOW MUCH BETTER EACH PASSING DAY IS. I hit rock bottom like you wouldn't believe this year, just glad to be back. Learned that I need to stop drinking while on this challenge though. Start thinking about bad decisions, leaves me hungover and feeling weak the entire next day, and generally ruins my mojo.
"Edging", "fishing" - this can mean anything from keeping an eye open for pics of attractive persons to masturbating while watching porn without O. You don't need to go into details but explain us what excactly happened
Day 30! I'm finally an elf! Those weeks went faster than I'd thought. Feeling grateful for this time, it's a lot more than I used to do. Honestly, I can't point one specific thing that has dramatically changed for me to reach this month (considering that I used to do only one week streaks), but I think it's the sum of all slight changes that helped me. And yet I'm passing through some pretty turbulent times, and this kind of stress used to be a huge trigger. I'll see my therapist today and we'll point some of the things that has been working, and then I'll share with you Let's keep going, this ring still needs to be destroyed!
Day 15 Getting ready to leave Hobbiton. Wish me luck, I'm out to cast this ring into the fire. With some good guidance, it's doable. Today so far: 7.5 hours of sleep, cold shower, prayer, 15 minutes of writing, weightlifting, walking. Up next: reading, meditation, more prayer, reasonable bedtime.