Thank you And you right . But i believe i hAve a control I watched this video that explain the difference between slip and relapse. and i would like more advice from all of u ?
Ok , thought about it a lot , And i think becuse of a one slip and not full relapse (not all out fmo attack) after 70 dAys means i made a progress, i can control myself , i have guilt and shame and from that i am learning about my mistake and how to fix it. As dr.trish leigh said that recovery is not a straight line, there will be “bumps” along the way. The improtant thing is to go back to course. i feel bad but proud myself for the awareness and control and i dont think a one time slip is game over for a 70 days progress. I will continue from 71 but i will mantion it that i had a slip becuse for u all who didnt , u all are level above me.dont find it as exuce for fmo again its not .just remember if you have a slip its ok just learn from it and dont go to “full out attack” of relapse . Eknwoladge that u slip (its not a failure just sat back). Tel me what u guys think i will be happy to know your ideas on the subject!
So 71 days with 1 slip! As a “begginer” i am proud myself and all of you who are trying to escape the jaws of porn
Yeah it makes sense. However for me personally I am very much a perfectionist which can be both good and bad. So normally I would start all over again if I watched porn. I've seen so much P that I'm not very much affected by it, not hyper sensitive, which also has it's good and bad sides. But If I would be at day 60 or something that's when I'd start to become much more sensitive to it. Yet relapses still have occured so maybe for me it's more of an emotional connection to the addiction rather than visual. At least it has been so for a long period. The most important thing for me is to avoid ejaculation because of the massive loss of energy as a result. As I've mentioned days ago. A mans body takes the absolute best to produce semen. It is the most precious substance that a human being can produce. It takes tremendous amounts of energy to produce high quality semen. It should never be wasted outside the body but instead: 1. be recycled and absorbed to build up a your masculinity and your energy levels. 2. to Create a new life. It is a shame that in pornography this fluid has been treated/used as some kind of dirt or trash. Watching porn alone is a problem but the loss of energy through ejaculation is devastating and very dangerous for a man. It causes all types of problems both mental and physical and that's not some New Age Theory (or whatever), it is a reality. This is something that boys never learn in school. If you think of it as something precious within you, you then have another reason to stay away from P and to build up this energy/substance. The body starts to absorb semen around day 90. But it may differ from person to person. Exercising will speed up this process. Continue your Journey and never give up just keep walking.
Going into day 14. Lifted in the morning. Ate a good breakfast with family. I'm happy to see them but I sometimes feel resentful. Through counselling and self-reflection, I learned I was likely emotionally neglected. Though this was something I had no control over, and I know my parents did the best they could, I can still choose to heal from it and forgive. Spending time being resentful is not productive or loving so today I hope I can choose to forgive again and do what I need to heal instead of viewing porn to escape the perceived pain and frustration.
Day 3! Urges are less than it was yesterday, and I was able spend my energy to a habit more positive like working out today. One hell of an awesome day honestly. Tomorrow is my fourth day, which is my set time in relapsing all the time before. I hope to break this wall and push through day five. Wish me luck folks, and good luck for you guys as well. Consistent is the key.
Hello friend .. I don't think mentioning slip after your day count will do any good don't be harsh on yourself Just think about it if you now setback your counter it will not speak the truth of your condition And likely you will spin the beginning circle for a while so remember the real zero that you started from does it really look like you now And other thing if you are a user of the Internet which all of us is. it reached a point that your brain cannot really be absolutely clean in the recovery so you intentionally or unintentionally had a peek the brain just had its sip and chemicals won't say oh that is intentional we must flood more .. so I think you should keep going as you are ... I wish you all the best . THIS DOESNT MEAN THAT WE SHOULD PEEK NUDE PICS AND CONSIDER OURSELVES RECOVERING IF THIS HAPPENS MORE THAN ONCE IT IS COMING BACK TO THE OLD HABIT .