Day 6 Things are fine right now, going to spend the day getting some housework done and clean out the shed.
I would say having and living the right self-perception, for you see the consciousness usually thinks about one thing ar a time, disruptive thoughts do just that-they jump into the your consciousness's line of perception. If you not aware of them they may hijack the wholeness of your attention and lead you to your old sideways. Practice of meditation teaches us to stay on path no matter what. Because they have temporary hard time and are quite unable to employ the methods they know, whilst at the same time failing to take their mind off the temptation feelings urging them to surrender to their old coping strategies.
Upper/lower split. One week calisthenics/one week bodybuilding and powerlifting. With cardio on both weeks. Amongst my regular daily stretching, brocade and yoga. Then you should return to read your recent post my friend, compare them to those of your journey early on. You have changed, keep it up. I have no doubt you will do better than last spring. Allow me to chime in on this, what @Slider8 mentions is correct. There is a bit more to it though. As someone who fell back temporarily after a long streak, I believe I can answer this. Complacency. Complacency in the face of emotional turmoil and life's obstacles. If you do not keep honing the habits and skills that brought you thus far, you will return to old patterns. Regardless how difficult things get in life, you must keep to your good roots and sharpen them. The temptation demon never sleeps, nor should your practice.
Checking in Fellowship Friends, Day 402 free of MO and day 11 free of porn. Taking the day off completely yesterday was helpful, my body definitely hurts less today. Although, I cannot expect one day to repair the damage. Magnesium supplement has also been very helpful, in toning down the overwhelm and cortisol. I'll see how beneficial it is on a more longterm basis and follow up with that. Another day of rest is before me. Stay strong and rest well!
Day 23 reached! Normal urges but trying to be busy to get over them. Got up early, worked out and ate healthy. Working in my discipline to have the enough forces to override this addiction. Keep strong my brothers and sisters!
I guess it is similar to alcohol addiction. After 500 days you cannot say I reckon I'm cured and then take a swing of a bottle to "check". If you decide to change, you'll have to stick to the new life forever since it is the healthy way.
I think you will probably tackle your inner pain. The more you stay away from pmo the more you´ll need to face your struggles and your pains without escaping. Sooner or later, you will face your inner demons. It´s called growth . And meditation is a great gateway to help you on that, particulary meditations that focus on the breath and body.
Checking in Fellowship!! 23 days here, getting my Hithlain rope Sorry for not checking in yesterday, i was really in a bad place, very hard withdrawal day . Today i feel 100000 times better eheheh I hope you guys are doing well, safe and sound. Here´s a powerful testimony about a brother who is clean for 3 and half years, replying to the lack of faith of another brother. "So the stuff you said about hearing that this is just a besetting sin you'll struggle with your whole life, with seasons of victory and seasons of struggle, etc. - that all seemed familiar to me. And I think that's the advice you are given by men in the church, because that's really the best they know to offer. It's their experience, because they haven't beat this, because they don't know what it takes to do so. It's natural to wonder whether this is even possible, if you don't know anyone who's done it. I struggled with PMO for about 25 years, so it was natural to conclude the things you were saying. But what Universal Man doing here is the real deal. I'm 3 and a half years clean now, and my life is changing before my eyes in huge ways. I'm leading a group of 8 guys in my church, many of whom had similar experiences of nothing working, followed by this working. I'm watching it happen in front of me successfully over and over. The key thing I think that makes this different is realizing that it's not actually about lust or a wayward sinful heart, but about the lack of developed manhood. You can't solve PMO by focusing on PMO - you gotta build the manhood that PMO is serving as a substitute for. Without this perspective, you can try to quit with willpower or good intentions, but it doesn't last." Let´s get going Fellowship!!! Onward!!!!
Checking in after missing yesterday. I had a full day and didn’t get online at all. The dwarven journey continues successfully. Thank you for all of your posts. Last night I had a dream in which I broke my streak and had to report here on that failure. Thankfully it was just a dream, but the disappointment I felt at letting the fellowship down was more keen and real than I would have expected. This challenge helps!
10 days. Fun to reach double digits again, it was certainly a while ago. More urges today but no fishing so far except some bad disciplin guarding my eyes on the street (checked out a few girls). Also having some issues with fantasies but overall it's not that bad.
Day 58 Feeling a lot better today, should be in normal health tomorrow! Had an amazing day at church amongst my friends, worshipping and learning - feeling pretty good about the next stage of my life. Urges were few and far between today, did catch my eyes wandering occasionally but the annoyance it caused me was an encouragement as previously I wouldn’t have thought twice about it.