Day 60 Two months without PMO - a milestone that is a very small step for man, but a great leap for an ex-addict. I’m pleased to have made it to Lothlórien, and finally not feeling ill from the flu! I did have some unusual urges earlier, I was sat at my desk watching Netflix when I realised my flatmate was out and I could choose to find some P and MO if I wanted to - it was unusual because I wanted to. I don’t know how to best describe the feeling but I just didn’t care about relapsing, quite worrying. Nevertheless, I’ve made a promise to myself, and I can’t turn back now.
I was watching your progress with a smile. It is sad that you have fallen, but what is life if it isn't fallin' and gettin' back up again? I wish you well, don't get lost, find the light. Strenght & Honor.
Day 78 complete. I have started looking a women once again. Bit by bit, urge by urge and I am cheking out women at our workplace slack and in real life. I must stop. I also have fantasies about my wife that will probably never come true. I have to get rid of them some how.
There is nothing like the feeling of day 2. The tiny feeling of getting a little bit more control in my life. My own life is super crazy and hard at the moment. But as much as I am tired and a little bit afraid, I know I can do it. Thanks to all of you. You are made out of pure awesome.
Day 373 no PMO. Awesome day yesterday. I went on a “Date” with my 12 yo. She has such an amazing personality and I was able to have some talks with her about life. All is well in my world.
I've been having some sleep and concentration issues and I relapsed the night before yesterday. Managed to be clean throughout yesterday, mostly due to being too busy even get the time to masturbate. I had a good run, however, 10 days is the longest streak in 2022. Now I have completed the first day of a new streak, let's hope it will last even longer.
Checking in Fellowship Friends, Day 405 free of MO and day 14 free of porn. I spent some time reading some material on yourbrainonporn, yesterday. In this time, study and practice is key to throttle the temptation demon, who promises nothing but emptiness and numbness. Once more, strong urges in the morning, they subsided after my meditation session. I am still planning on resting today, with some additional study. I'll share part of what I wrote down from my readings from Meditations of Marcus Aurelius yesterday: "How can our principles become dead, unless the impressions (thoughts) which correspond to them are extinguished. But it is in thy power continuously to fan these thoughts into a flame. I can have that opinion about anything. Which I ought to have if I can, why am I disturbed? The things which are external to my mind have no relation at all to my mind. Let this be the state of thy affects and thou standest erect. To recovery thy life is in thy power. Look at things again as thou didst use to look at them; for in this consists the recovery of thy life." Stay strong! @stronaut2021 Do not give in to despair, friend. The urges may be strong for the next few days, but you've already gone 43 days, which means you can do so again. You've identified a crack in your armor. This is good news. You know now, that after a wet dream, that you must come up with a plan of action. Journal this done, work on the solution that will assist you better on the next time. Delve into what exactly was happening, what lead you to that auto-pilot and find a solution to counteract it. You got this! @EpsilonDelta As I mentioned to stronaut above, delve into what occurred. Write it out and challenge it with a new solution. Keep moving forward friend!
Day 0 Masturbated to clothed pictures this morning. Should have told my fiancee last night I had masturbated. Being open with her would have been a big help that may have prevented this morning.
great readings bro . I´m also reading Marcus Aurelius Meditations, great book, and a lot to ponder about, specially how to become a better person Great progress you´re doing bro! only one day away to become a Hobbit, excellent comeback my brother, i´m proud of you
Checking in Fellowship!! Good day so far, still feeling a lot of withdrawal sympthoms: fatigue, leg pain, anxiety, but less than before, for sure. I´m doing my things anyhow , and studying about the reboot. just a bit everyday is enough to keep me motivated, enriched and aware Great to see your progress Fellowship, some falls for sure, but the overall mood is good. Have your ever wonderer how we all are becoming better persons through managing one of the biggest forces around (sexual energy) ? This is not easy, this is not simple. That´s why we are all Warriors!!! Let´s keep going my friends!! Towards a better life and mankind