Checking in Fellowship! Very hard day at work, with a very difficult situation to solve. it was not perfectly solved, but i did my best, and now is beyond my control. But among the stress and the difficulty of the situation, i felt at ease, like a deep peace that was always with me. and what i went through today, i doubt that a lot of men could keep it together. Cold showers, nofap, meditation, wim hof breathings, moderate and healthy nutrition, proper sleep hygiene, workouts... all of this contribute to gain self-mastery, confidence and inner peace. But all of this can crumble easily if i don´t keep following my path. And that´s what i intend to do Have a great day my friends. Checking out!
Day 6 as an Orc, complete. So far so good. Beating off the urges with a stick! Looking forward to getting this ORC stink off me!
Checking in on my last orc day. Light urges most mornings, starting to come out of the post-ejaculatory mental and emotional stew and feel stronger again.
Damn almost 3 days and then I lapsed again ...1 hour ago... it was rly short only short edging but... you know^^ aaaah so dumb! -.- okay - This month I had over 8 days of relapse (thats still way too much - I can imagine how it would be to have 0 days!) Today again my back pain triggered me, my tiredness...dunoo why I was so freakin tired the whole day... nothin helped I tried a lot.. Maybe Im gettin ill^^ Greats out. Lets be better next month!
Day 151 Had to go to A&E this morning; I’ve been experiencing an increased number of specs and floaters in my vision and the NHS told me to get it assessed immediately. Unfortunately the hospital I visited didn’t have the proper optometry equipment to help me, but I’ve been booked in with a specialist in a few days. Aside from that little scare, today has been nice! No urges, and now on a college trip - hoping the following week goes well!
Day 5 complete! I planned early in the day to do some creative writing today, and even though I didn't really feel like it when the time came, I stuck to my plan. I didn't write very much but I was at least able to start my brain thinking about the direction I can take the writing next time, so it felt like a win. If I had relapsed within the past two or three days I don't think I would have been as successful. Cold showers will resume tonight! St. Catherine of Siena, pray for us!
Good day! No major urges, only those random thoughts of "what if I ..." that would eventually lead me to PMO.
Day 4 Super tired. I spent most of the day with my dad who was in town. We looked at furniture and took the dogs for a walk. I feel bad as I kinda snapped at my step-mom a bit as she was getting on my case a bit about some stuff I didn't want to get push-back on. I apologized at the end of the day though. I was able to be next to my step brother drinking beer without craving one much which is huge for me as I used to be a heavy alcoholic. Still have this flat, tired feeling... Hope it goes away soon. I feel like relaxing in a warm bath or something, but that would be a relapse risk. Maybe I'll have a warm shower instead.
Day 51 complete this time I worked from home alone. It went well and without urges. But after I finished work I felt wery horny and remembered specific things that I crave. I wanted to look for some sexy images, but instead I pressed the panic button. In where I was linked to I read a story about how a girl lef her boyfriend because of his attitude to his addiction to P. That and the fact that most women don’t like the things that I really crave brought me back to reality and I continued doing what I had planned. Going to sleep on time is going well.
Day 2, 10 hrs ORC Journey has only just begun. 1000 steps can only be done one at a time. This is my second account for some reason. I am Ace4321 too. You guys are such an inspiration. I am so glad I found this challenge board. Its like the best of reading and going through journals, but its all in one place, constantly active. I feel you guys and know we are on this journey together. Some a bit farther than others, and those are the pioneers who have forged a trail for those behind to follow.
I know this is old, but its absolute gold. I am so grateful to be a part of this challenge with each and every one of you.
Yesterday was a pretty relaxing day. Around the time to go sleep, a heavy urge to fantasize came up but managed to get through it, i guess it's the chasereffect talking. Today working only half a day, then do some gardening and house chores. Then it's chilltime again Day 2 - Orc, The Dark Tower Barad-Dûr
Day 464 no PMO. I got super stressed out yesterday. It was basically all revolving around my “imposter syndrome” fear. I know I’m a broken human and I’m worried people will realize it. I need to find a way to stop caring so much how others view me. Also had an unprovoked wet dream last night. Yesterday I had zero lustful thoughts so I have no idea where the wet dream came from.
