Day 3 Thanks for all the birthday wishes! Had to dig out this stump with my dad in the yard. We got it out easier than I thought. Then I had dinner with my grandpa. Urges haven't been very bad lately, but it might just be because I'm away and a bit more distracted. Happy fathers day to all those concerned and it looks like we got a new batch of White Wizards coming up soon. Most exciting!
I would recommend stopping multi-tasking. I read in a book or 2 that its not healthy to multi-task. Companies say that you need to multi-task because they want more money. But in reality that breaks your ability on concentrating on 1 thing at a time. Also multi-tasking while watching a movie or a tv-show, as you are watching, you are holding your phone and going through the feeds. You are not giving your brain the ability to concentrate on 1 task.
Finished day 4 strong. Had my whole day outside. And even when I returned home, I pushed myself into working out, so I went out again. Got home only to sleep. Had no time to think about PMO. Looking forward for a new day.
Day 11 complete I finished my trip to Amsterdam. Didn’t find time to post. There were not a lot of urges to masturbate or watch P but I was having a hard time keeping my eyes away from the local women. It’s still a habit for me to check out other woman, it’s easier to resist back home, but I still look at them. But besides that I am being careful about sexual matters and I don’t feel strong now. My wife is sad because I didn’t comunicate with her enough during the trip and I feel that there is a lot of chaos in my life right now.
Day 6 as an Orc complete. "I am worth the extra effort!" Today I start another "challenge" that I have been failing at for longer than I can remember: entertainment. I have been over indulging in entertainment and I feel that it has become a bit of a crutch in place of PMO. So I have chosen to take a break from all forms of TV/Device related entertainment for the next 7 days to start.
In Cognitive Psychology class, the professor literally said, "The human brain does not multitask." What he meant, I believe, was that the brain does one task at a time and just switches. This is not nearly as efficient or accurate as doing one task at a time. There are lots of errors in the task and, more to the point, in judgment.
I'm still P-free, and have been M-free for a few days as well. I feel somewhat better, as I do every time I get to this point.
Day 483 no PMO. Still testing positive for Covid. I’ve been sleeping a lot more than normal and still have cold like symptoms but other than that I am feeling ok. I feel I’m handling this as well as I can. I recently came to terms with the fact that “God has a plan for the ultimate greater good. I don’t know what that plan is. It might/probably does involve tough spots for me but I will trust that he knows what he is doing.”