The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Sorry to hear that brother , get back to grind as fast you can.

 

I had an exam today and its almost pretty sure that I would get pitiable marks. Maybe if I had a pmo session like previous times I might have done better , but in that case my inner fears would remain the same (depending on something to get get pat through something harsh is exactly the same thing alcoholics and drug addicts do). I am happy even though I performed badly as I have faced the harsh reality just like a strong person would do.

I intend to get better at my studies by the end of the year progressively and also get into a better shape too .

Lots of things to be done , and this might be a perfect start for it.

 

Don't worry brother These marks aren't your better version of your brain. Engaging in NoFap you can build your real brain abilities. I wish your all the best for your exams

 

Tnx brother , we could achieve many more things if we develop will power, confidence and self discipline than getting random marks

Let's strive to become our best version .

 

Thank you brother. I'm glad to see you. When I was beginner level in challenge , there were lot of huge heroes in this challenge. And you were a one of them.

 

Day 196
Memorizing some old memories

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

120 Days Free of PMO. 4 months, almost as long as the period of auto pilot mode, after my last relapse.

I tackled this week with success and had some great feedback, now I can take some rest as I have a few days off. I did not only "survive", I thrived and grew from the week. I am really happy about that. I await the result of an interaction, this may bear some good news for me, if I make it to the next step.

Also, I mentioned the other day my total T has gone up about 20% since last year. I received the results for my free T , it has also gone up by 28%, since last year. I also tested for the first time, bioavailable T. We'll see where I stand on that front. My goal for next year is to bring it up again by at least 10-15%.

Stay Strong!

120 days After a long walk you reach Minas Morgul, the dark fortress of Mordor. Once called Minas Ithil, the twin city of Minas Tirith, it was dominated by the forces of PMO in the Third Age.

"Upon the further side, some way within the valley's arms, high on a rocky seat upon Ephel Dúath, stood the walls and towers of Minas Morgul. All was dark about it, earth and sky, but it was lit with light. Not the light welling through the marble walls of Minas Ithil long ago, fair and radiant in the hollow of the hills. Paler indeed than the moon ailing in some slow eclipse was the light of it now, wavering and blowing like a noisome exhalation of decay, a corpse-light, a light that illuminated nothing."

A superior power is needed so you transformed into a Elf-King: wise, powerful and immortal.



@HE^MAN Yeah the pressures of a move can definitely get to you, but again bro be proud not only did you get back up but you have so many days in your favour to keep moving you forward. Also, check out the front page rankings have updated since your last journey.

@MS PBH Glad to have you back brother, it has been quite some time.

@breaking-myths This is your addict mind trying to convince that you would of done better had you been PMOing. Unlikely, be proud that you went through that exam without that cope. Even if your marks aren't the best on this one, revisit your study plan, talk with your teacher and you will see things change on the next one.

@Ready to Stop Sorry to hear about your relapse brother, you've identified a trigger though. Come up with an action plan to overcome it. You can take this down, you've proven so in the past and you can do so again.

 

3 days
Relapsed with MO on saturday. At least was not with porn, but was a relapse. Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day eight,
Doing great!

 

Day 7!

 

My slip was the same brother. Alone in a hotel room triggered and after alcohol. It’s really tough in that situation.

 

Day 8 of nofap today. Was an OK day. Did a workout and was productive at home.

Not that many urges today.

This youtube video gave me alot of motivation today:

 

5 days - With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree.

Life is good. Started my new job yesterday. Huge project. Few years of work. That is less stress. Not really struggling with temptations. Really having feelings towards God. Seams to satisfy what I was looking for in porn. God cherishes me. It feels so nice to feel cherished. I think I was using porn to feel cherishes, loved and delighted in. God loves, cherishes and delights in me and I feel it.

 

I have stayed away from pornography since destroying my two old computers. They were not working, and instead of trying to sell the parts when they are not worth it, I dismantled and destroyed the hard drives, and threw out what was left of the computers in the barn to wait to be recycled when there is a free recycling day. Now I have a new computer that is innocent; that is, I have never watched pornography on it. I intend, of course, to keep it this way.

I don't remember the date on which I last watched pornography on my old laptop. I probably have more time free than my counter indicates, but I set it to a day after the latest I may have quit.

I am proud to be without those old computers on which I got into so much trouble.

Now I am reading Soaring Eagle's pdf book again, some of you know to which one I refer when I say that Rebooting as the Best Remedy or something like that is the title. I started reading it a couple years ago, stopped, and like I say, several days ago I restarted. I'm at the beginning.

Wish me luck.

Let's do this!

 

Day 8 and 9

Urges: 4/5
Thoughts 4/5

It's gotten pretty bad at a couple of points, fully erected and everything, but I've managed to pull through. I think I'm at a point where I can safely let the thoughts run their course without losing it.

 

@Redemptionisrequired Tnx brothers for your words , I will strive to get better everyday.

Day 35
I was not able to get up early today and woke up around 3 hours late. I experienced a burst of energy at night preventing me from getting a good sleep . Has anyone experienced a similar condition of insomnia ? But I did not experience any urges.


Maybe I think I will start working out a bit harder now.

 

Thnx mate.
Day 3

 

PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river.

3 days no PM
3 days no video games
10 days no hot shower
3 days no caffeine

Self restriction feels fantastic

@Redemptionisrequired very well done! You'll make it to mount doom this time!

@The_mando the thumbnail of that video is triggering, please be more careful next time

 

Check in day 38

 

Seeing a pattern of hitting exhaustion on Weds Thurs & Fri. Nothing insane, just not getting requisite rest the night before. This leads to a very weak mindset heading into the weekend. Committing here to sort this out now once and for all and returning to my commitments on sleep patterns
Sleep - 7.5 min bed before 11

• At wk 4 start paring back the hours to 7 during the week with one 6 hour and two 8 hours
• No devices or TV after 9