Hey Guys... long time no see oO Ive quit on this forum for a couple of dumb reasons. PMO went insane after the last breakup in Okt 2022 Now Ive handled to reduce it again. But to be honest I want to quit it forever now. So im back in the game. Today is Day 2 for me. How are you doing? Ive missed the connection from this forum... many great advices and interesting infos came from some of you here. But problem last year was: I put way too much pressure on myself. When I force things I made it even worse (edging, quitting, bad behaviours in relationship,...) I disconnected from myself and that was rly not good. I focus on healing now that means Love for myself even in the darkness of a relapse OR especially then! Greets <3
18 days Low urges yesterday, worked almost all the day. I didn't slept well today, but at least I woke up early. Worked out and took a cold shower Keep strong my brothers.
And... Day 90!! Hello, I left this challenge in April 2022, and I came back to NoFap in October, but I decided to post only on one challenge, which was the Super Saiyan Challenge. But I have friends here that helped me and deserved to know that I finally reached the milestone. @Kairose , @kaerhal , @nerdy_owl , @Paul S. , @Talz , @RiseToGreatness , @CALM IN SUFFERING , @SSS Vision , @Slider8 , @Ready to Stop , @Dominikfhj , @Gallade_Templar I never thought that I could reach this milestone. I really thought that it was nearly impossible. A new blank page opens in the book of my life. I am about to experience a whole of new things. Since the age of 14, never passed more than 30 days without MO, and since at least 15 years without PMO. I have a lot of work to do. For example, the "tastes" or "perversions" created in my mind through the use of porn are not gone away yet. So, I need to work on them. Also, I need to work on fantasies. Our imagination capability is for good use, not for wasting energy on dirty thoughts. Soon I'll write a post with my tips or what I think influenced me the most to reach this milestone. But for now, let's celebrate!! Thank you, everyone, here for your empowering words and for your sharing that helped me a lot to resist the temptations and prioritize my life. Stay Strong. It is worth it.
Checking in Fellowship Friend's 20 Day Free of PMO. Today was a restful day, but I had some pretty strong urges this morning. More fantasy than anything else. Stay Strong! @IveWastedMyTime Welcome back brother! @stronaut2021 Welcome back to the fellowship, hope you stick around!
52 days welcome (back) @IveWastedMyTime @stronaut2021 @Boromir son of Denethor I had a vivid dream about PMO'ing, was not nice. I was as usual very ashamed in the dream about relapsing.
Feeling that the filth energy of the last fall still clings to me. I can detect the subtle stench from my body odour and wake in the middle of the night with terrors. I am looking forward to sweating it out through exercise at the weekend. I am resigned now to accepting the next 4 weeks of low dopamine also. I have become nervous & jumpy and have lost all my calm. I no longer feel like a man. Worst thing is that I've started to have crazy episodes in work, over reacting, spitting while talking, cracking loud jokes that tank and get no response, starting to lose my mind. Very worrying times. If you're tempted to relapse - don't - the consequences are terrible. Please pray for me.
Day 3 strong urges at morning and a couple of seconds ago... but instead of going to youtube Ive decided to go to the forum and press the button
Day 29. I just have to think and understand do I still want to do this or I am just lying to myself that I still want to do this. Spoiler: Journey stuff Hard mode + no shutting blockers down - day 29. No caffeine (no coffee, tea, chocolate, etc.). Calisthenics workout every Saturday. I can do one additional workout on any chosen day. 10 done.
Day 3, trod on! 3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river. I am out of this PMO land! lets do this!