THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

It’s been 6 days since last slip into porn, but only 1 day since fapping so I’m marking my streak there. I had to get clear on my bottom lines.
As the “E a s y P e a s y M e t h o d” goes, “I am a non-user” has become my mantra.
How is this behavior of being a user conveyed over into other aspects of my life? Even when I cease porn use there are other ways I’ve found to use people places and things for a quick dopamine hit. I get to ask myself as brother JB39 shared in his wisdom “what is this really about?”
How has my using behavior hurt other people? How can I operate now from a place of non-user on all levels of life in order to be a part of the cure rather than contributing to dis-ease?

Therefore I consider the last fap to be another case of using fantasy for a quick hit of pleasure to numb out and avoid. I set my goal at hard mode. No fapping for 120 days before review in order to get a full reboot.
Here we go, day 1


(悟) Low Class Warrior ▬ Training in the ► SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE ◄

 

I think those are good questions to ask that can lead to healing.

 

Congratulations Warrior

 

Day 385
Go and Get it

 

Day 1.

 

Has anyone watched Death Note? Imagine that its a Sex Note, and that you get to have sex with anyone you want. That would essentially be like pmo addiction. But now it's the real thing, and the Note convinces the people you want to have sex with that they're in love with you. This is like porn, where you get to see all those naked bodies, anything you want without any real relationship or consent. Like Light Yagami thinking of himself as a death God, in a way our addicted brains might be thinking itself a sex God. It screws up our expectations for what sex and relationships should be like, and removes from our mind that there is a whole other person with the same feelings and self ownership that we have. The person that we desire for sex then gets turned into an object of judgement.

 

3 days free of PMO, day 4 in progress.
@JB39 congratulation on SS3 brother, that's a great achievement!
@Dovahkin101 great thought experiment the sex-note one. P really does mess up the way we perceive ourselves and reality.

 

Thanks everyone for your support.
Day 101 check in.
This has been a difficult day for me. We're having some issues at work and this puts me on the spot for some quick turn around work. At home another portion of quarrel and frustration with the little one (maybe too spoiled I come to realize) and the wife.

Bottom line going through some rough time right now. Will need to plan and re-adjust.
Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!

 

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Day 4

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

3 Day's Free of PMO.

Keep Training!

 

Day 6 , I become healthy again! I can sleep last night, keep Free of PMO.

 

Have you guys seen this:

 

Day 3

 

Day 31!

 

Congratulations with the milestone and I can really relate to what you are saying: I too had a very difficult time the first few weeks after a major relapse and life in general was just a combination of lethargicness, headaches (brainfog), angry, low energy / mood and just going through the motions to keep my sanity in check.

I also feel I'm much better after such a long time of abstinence (almost 1/2 year now!) but also feel I am not fully recovered and also still sometimes catch myself having these sudden thoughts about porn, escorts, etc. Luckily though, I am now much more capable of addressing myself and reminding myself of the reality. Things like: "Remember how I felt right after a relapse?" or "Remember how all the superhot online escorts looked like shit and were disgusting when you would see them in real life?" really helps me get back on track.

Keep on fighting this good fight, really happy for you that this is now working out. Not only for you, but especially for your wife and most importantly for you child! Be the best example you could ever be! Because you can only teach your child the good things in life by showing it via your own behaviour. Only bad things can be taught to a child by words (like swearing).

 

Day 168

Had a productive, hardworking but at the same time fun days at work. I notice I am enjoying my work, my colleagues more and more over time! Compared to a year ago I feel like I have gotten a better job. But the only thing changed is me... Colleagues are giving me loads of compliments about my work ethic, productivity and enjoy having me around. Hopefully I'll get that next promotion which will bring me in the highest paygrade bracket that the company pays for my job title and which is a way higher pay I would ever imagine getting..

I signed up for another competition in a strength event and I am lifting more crazy weights than I've ever done before. Maybe I am projecting, but really really strongly feel this is for a big part due to the longer abstinence of porn: my dopamine and cortisol levels are much more stable for a very long time and I think I am now reaping those benefits in all other factors in my life.

On the flip side, I had a weird dream two nights ago that I was really turned on and eventually relapsed by opening up an escort website. I was even aware that I would relapse in my dream. Luckily it ended there. Still a bizar trick my mind was playing with me. Luckily it was only a dream.

Just two weeks away from the 1/2 year milestone guys!!

 

Day 431!

@DRAGON_, stay strong brother .

@Lexro84, hope you will get the promotion!

 

Missed a day checking in day 6

 

Day 56

Hey guys glad to be here among such strong lads, unlike a pathetic lifeform on a different thread thinking its impossible for us to exist because since he hasn't done what we're doing then overcoming the addiction is impossible to him. Absolutely pathetic. That's the kind of mindset where you end up hurting someone else because you've rationalized that it's inevitable to have an addiction because you've rationalized that we're somehow hardwired for it. When other people are involved like having a wife and a sex addiction, and you're not willing to overcome this addiction but instead rely on her to get you over it with having sex with her, you'll just end up hurting her because she won't be able to fulfill a sex addicts desires. I can't believe I'm seeing a Gollum play out in real life, ah well there it is.