365 days and no power to live

Besides, something I would like to share is... at some point, some time ago, sometimes I thought about women, sometimes I thought, for example, about kissing with them. I know how it sounds, but it was like that. I have never fantasized sexually, but these thoughts about kissing sometimes caused some sort of excitement. It sometimes can cause erections. I usually stopped thinking about it when the excitement appeared, if I remember correctly. I prefer not to do that anymore, but I wonder If it did not cause what is happening to me now.