41 days and still no benefits/anxiety

Yes I am actually I've got a ways to go me and my wife have a ways to go I've got 34 years of objectifying my wife and lots of bad habits I'm getting rid of all of them I don't take ADHD meds anymore I don't take antidepressant anymore okay my compulsive behavior is changing I'm able to actually have conversations and not bounce around the room stay on track for any type of projects that we do my work productivity is gone up I'm losing weight 20 lbs down so far 16 more pounds to go we're using this to obtain all of our goals when my wife decides and God chooses that's when we will have sex again and not before the only thing I use a boner for is every morning it's points to where the coffee makers at and sometimes it's used for a divining rod urine into the yard from the front porch LOL if anyone needs any help I'm on my way to 120 180 275 per our marriage abstinence contract sell baby 365 I feel sometimes it's better if you just don't put it into it and then it doesn't feel so hard so like you're walking on a tightrope

 

Hmm well, you started to lose me at the last sentence lol but one thing I would consider getting into is some Chinese medicine. Understanding the body and beyond. Because we expelled so much semen, our body must take the food we eat process it to make semen/sperm. And it’s a very long and meticulous process where at the end we just get drops from all the food we eat. And it takes energy to make this process and our body has many other functions that need energy so we are taxing our body especially when we screw around with it like we do, it’s past over due. Also, sperm is alive, it comes from the spark of man and that’s why men die sooner.

This has been a revelation for me and I will tell you what I have come to realize. We have a source of energy where we draw from and direct into feelings, which propels us to do something, then we get our thoughts. The trick is to not let that source propel us to do the wrong things, or to think the wrong thoughts. So what we must do is stop the source of energy to flowing into lust. You must stop it before you feel it. Then you hold the source “there” and let it heal itself as it radiates out to the rest of the body. We are of nature and nature has given us a sex drive so that we go have sex and procreate. Our source of energy is what drives us to have sex, which is sexual, harness that “sexual” energy before it reaches your heart and instead choose to retain it or focus it else where.

 

I have actually looked at semen retention and to see if there's any science behind it or if there's any religious connections with God involved in it my journey has definitely got me a lot closer with God and Jesus and I'm not sure if I wanted to even contemplate going the way of the Chinese but I would look at some scientific evidence if you could point me in the right direction that shows that seminal retention actually has a value in it? I have also read about about injaculation? Let me know if you got any data, I do know that I'm getting a lot stronger so that's there's got to be something right?

 

Well, you can be getting stronger for many reasons. Androgen receptors getting resentisized? So testosterone is more felt. Maybe your healing so your over all well being is getting better. You’re heading in the right direction but consider when one part of the body suffers, you will ache else where, like when you’re leg is sore and you walk weird, that’s messing up a host of things like back and posture and other leg muscles. If you’re taxing your body, what body part is taxed? Kidneys, liver, intestines?? If that part fails, what else fails? What body part do we need to make sperm etc. Consider that sense. You should also consider less about studies and not up to date facts, because they are always changing, and consider more what you are and where you came from. We are conciousness, everything is conciousness, but we are nature because we come from nature which gave us our sex drive, our source of energy, but everything is consciousness and so is nature but everything is also energy. So if you consider all this, we are birth through nature from consciousness, which is energy, so we are energy too and energy is essentially vibration, which is us. Everything vibrates and we are all on the same frequency to “see” each other but there’s a lot to “see”, things beyond our eyes and hands, where we “see” with our heart or our third eye because everything is from feeling, that’s what drives the universe. But anyways I side stepped a bit but if we are vibration, then we send this vibration from our “source” to only waste it on meaningless thoughts and feelings, then what do we retain? Nothin, we just lose because those wasted thoughts are the energy burning off, it’s felt through lust, which does a shit ton of things in our body and mind.

Sorry I have no studies for this, because it’s hard to, but consider it and consider what you know. We put too much emphasis on the concrete when it’s just an illusion, mirror of the mind, our mind. These 4 walls tell you that is where we were made, but we forget where we came from Mother Earth. And Mother Earth made nature and nature is the universe because its free and comes from consciousness since consciousness is everything, so we are conciousness but we have a mind, told to be narrow so we pick, when there is nothing to pick because one or two can not be all, everything is all so we are all, so we just need to be to be all and merge back to conciousness.

 

I have not gotten blue balls I have not relapsed have not looked at porn have not masturbated have not orgasms I get boners everyday but it's like they just point the directions that's all which is always forward I know the equipment still works I get in the occasional leakage nothing to be expecting the body gets rid of the excess it doesn't need right I have no desire to masturbate I have no desire to look at any porn I'm merely want to resume sex as it was always meant to be in the eyes of God with my wife. When God decides and she chooses that's when it will happen and I'm okay with that I used to be the guy that got laid 3 to 5 times a week up until March 22nd and now it's all good

 

Hey we should start a group to help each other out. Can someone start it please? We all have common experiences and you all seem like a nice support group so why the hell not...

 

hardmode pmo only or don't bother

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If you want to resume having sex with your wife, sounds like your horny, which is a feeling. You gotta control that feeling by stopping that feeling

 

For me it's about mind control your mind controls your brain your brain controls your body Therefore your mind controls your body functions it is completely natural and human to get a boner however it is not 100% natural just because you get a boner that you have to act on it? So getting a boner I don't equate it to getting sex I equated to me controlling it I did not act on it therefore it did not happen it is the arousal of that function is which I'm trying to control and doing a fairly good job of it so I did not step over a boundary or cross the line and my wife would have said so if I did. I shall ask her if she feels uncomfortable about it and if she does then we shall stop it again

 

Yes and your mind is controlled by your thoughts and your thoughts are conjured by your feelings/emotions. Not knocking you and you’re doing great, but I’m just tryna tell you that you can stop those erections, long time or not, just by stopping these feelings to manifest itself by being aware of before your feelings, which is driven by however you feel, gotta direct that “source” into what ever means more to you and stop yourself from feeling, stop yourself from being horny by not allowing your being to go that way.

 

I wake up with a boner I don't walk around with a boner I'm snuggling with my wife at night to show that my mind is in control of this I talk with my wife and she did say just watch the arousal thing and that's a big that is a big thing so when I get aroused that's why I need to walk away the difference is just because I get a boner doesn't mean I'm always aroused or horny okay a boner is a natural response being horny is an okay response once we're ready being aroused is something I do need to stop so you are right thank you and I will do so appreciate the tip

 

Thank you very much I'm going to make sure that I don't cross the arousal threshold any longer really good insight thank you God bless

 

It takes some awareness and practice, but anyone can learn. This is what you should do, first when those thoughts arise, notice how you are feeling, now back track that feeling and try to stop it, try to notice where you got the energy to conjure that feeling. You should meditate if not already, it helps with being aware.

Bless you brother, God loves us all and I love you too. I wish you well for you and your wife and I hope you guys live a long joyous and loving life.

 

I want to thank you very much for your Insight that's awesome I will definitely apply that when I meditate and I've never really thought about attempting that so good catch thank you and may God give you the brightest day of the week today

 

Last tip, once you are aware of that “source” you should hold it still just like you would when you meditate. Or choose to direct it however you want. Good luck, god bless you brother

 

i dont want to be a killjoy but strangely frustation on not being able to meditate sucessfully was what brought me to my second season of PMO, but in no ordinary way, in vivid sexual thoughts that made me O without me touching anything.

 

That’s okay, it just means you should probably work on that. In order to even O without touch, you have to feel or think about it, but if you stop the feeling or thought, you can’t possibly orgasm, you should read the last few comments I posted on this thread, it’ll help you be aware of that. You’re frustrated during meditation means you’re attaching to something negative, just let it go, let it all go and just be.

 

1- the thing is i couldnt stop it because it was my subconcious doing it, try stopping a sexual dream, it was like that, they were almost like unstoppable hallucinations.
2- you are probably right on that.(my frustation)