25/90 Today I dreamed about a kid that died 11 years ago the same night. That day I was sad but didn't cry. I chose to drink myself to oblivion. Today after the dream my tears poured like rain. And it was raining like crazy last night as well. Today marks exactly 5 years sober from alcohol. I had an urge after crying and something that felt like a chaser effect. I suppose tears also generate some chemical in the brain. In a few words I know I don't have to fap today or drink. I can live my life; mourn my passed friends and enjoy spending time with the ones I have now. Thank you nofap for this awesome community.