almost there, day 57 right now. it feels hard especially at the first 3 weeks and at the flatline phase.
Hey guys! I read some posts of people who came here from 30 Day and 60 Day Challenges. I never did that, went straight for this 90 Day Challenge. I thought I could do it easily, but it's been a rougher ride than I expected. Now I'm thinking, maybe I should do those first. It would give me a boost to my self confidence to finish something. Or maybe on the other hand I would start to slack when I set my goals lower. What do you guys think? As it is, I'm on day 4 of my current streak. No more P, no more peeking. If I peek for even a second at something for the purpose of getting turned on, I will reset again. Instead I'm increasing confidence and self-love. I built this reality, now I will build a better one. I joined this forum 161 days ago. Of those 161 days, I was 146 days without P.
Day 7 relapsed this mornign at 4am Went to sleep too late, like 2 am. I didn't even feel like relapsing, but I was feeling so fcked up, and couldn't sleep that cravings came up. I think I am going to join the Vanguard of Universal Man, because I think that's going to help me even more. So much love to all of you. Keep going strong!
I relapsed today, I was triggered by a P retweet of someone I was following on Twitter. I kinda got to confident in my streak and the new milestones I had accomplished. I thought had gained ful control so i decided to watch some of the content which led me to P I went to deep into the rabbit hole. Now it am definitely going to surpass my highest day 62. I have reset my counter. So today is day 0
Hey @Merry Terry, 146 clean out of 161 days is amazing! As someone that took smaller challenges first, I can give you my opinion. You know, when I started I thought I needed to build confidence, like you said, because I had failed so many times. Going for 90 days (or a year, which my real goal) was a little bit too scary, because I really wanted this new process to work. So I thought that I would join a challenge that wasn't too easy but not too challenging at the same time. I found a 30-day challenge and thought that it was going to work. I never had the intention to find something easy, because actually from my experience I knew that the first 2-3 weeks were the most difficult. So I focused and spent the first 30 days studying about rebooting, reading articles, participating in the forum.. and that gave me an initial boost. When I was close to complete the challenge I needed to decide what to do next.. I could go for 30 days again or take a bigger challenge. I didn't want to take the same challenge again. So my decision was to escalate to a bigger challenge, but start where I was, at day 31, to help me remember my progress. I felt it like going to level 2. And it has been working good.
Day 11/90 No PM Day 444 at attempting this challenge Day 157 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
Day 14 of 90 Had a pretty good day today. Also realized that I haven’t had a boner in 2 weeks. Even though I have had thoughts of sex quite often.
Day 2 no M, Day 107 no P. I watched that video, yesterday! I really helped me remind my self the goals and to stop slacking. Thanks to whoever posted it here! It was kind of easier in the beggining when I forced myself to watch/read one thing about porn addiction and reinforced my motivation. After I achieved the initial 2 months, maybe I started slacking a bit with the motivation, which led to the M relapses (no actual porn of course). So maybe I will start watching some motivational stuff every day again! Please post more videos like this! And thank you again! Keep going guys!
