Amen to this! I Can totally relate with this @Sjunior7! But life is what life is - as you note - and our task in recovery is to learn how to accept this. This is not to suggest we do not do anything about what's going on in our lives. First, however, we need to let what's happening in - something I, as a recovering addict, am not too practiced at! So best of luck with your search. Best of luck with this work. And keep going...
More than a week now. I feel tired tonight and the temptation is very strong. Read a few topics here helps a lot. Courage everyone
Day #28 ended yesterday. Day #29 is going to be over soon, as it is night in Italy I'm happy as I am very near to reach an achievement: Clean November. I mean, a full calendary month free from masturbation and porn
My day counter isn't entirely accurate I was looking at porn and feeling myself down there at times but never to orgasm. I have had some wet dreams but have not deliberately tried to orgasm since the beginning date my counter references. So I stopped looking at porn altogether about a week ago and yeah I'm just tracking since the last time I looked at porn masturbated and orgasmed all together. I still think I've progressed a lot and will continue the journey into good health and spiritual awareness.
Did somebody make it to double digits? This guy! I was faced with some pretty erotic pop ups on the computer today as I decided to watch a show on the wide world web. Luckily I was able to exit before seeing anything extremely X-rated but I was surprised when I had no immediate reaction to visit this all well known website on my own. I was able to watch the entire episode and then come her to tell you guys about it. This is working out for me a whole lot and I couldn't be happier. Next goal 14 days. I'll get there for sure! 10 down 80 more to go!
Day 31 complete ... Had urges while surfing ... Things came up ... Understood that surfing won't help ... Need to focus on work ... Will Persevere to my better self ...
I signed up to this yesterday, but not sure if it worked as I can't see my post anywhere. Just woke up for day 2 of this challenge. I know I have a long road ahead of me, but I feel good that I made it through day 1. Had to keep very busy yesterday and avoid alone time as much as possible and felt like there were triggers everywhere. Even pictures on social media are pulling me back, like a gateway to P. I'm able to stop myself though and put my phone down straight away before I get sucked in. Let's see what day 2 has in store...