Day 3. Journal entry. So like I said in my previous post today, I woke up late and had to do some coping stuff. However during the day, the cravings kept recurring and I did the same coping exercise about 3 times today, which helped me shift them. Quite frankly I didn't get anything done, besides this, which is essentially a journal entry about my day. So after doing the coping exercise, I would still have the urges, so I would go back and watch Netflix and magically the urges would go away. It's really hard to explain, because, during the time that I am watching Netflix I can get cravings, but when I do the stretching, tapping and relaxation exercises and go back to Netflix, they go away. Btw I'm watching "Chesapeake Shores". So here I am writing this and from a scale from 1 to 10 considering my cravings, I am at a 4 or 5. I suspect that this night is going to be horrible as well, but I keep trying to use coping skills. If I relapse, I will just keep going, I still have to absorb the information from Reforged Man and review some old videos from Universal Man, to hopefully help with my stuff. It's specially hard for me, because I don't have an accountability partner / someone to talk to. I already posted a thread in hopes to find someone. If anybody is willing to do regular check-ins with me where we do voice-chat or video-chat, that might just be a great help, and maybe for you too. Just PM me or answer this post. Thanks
So here it is -> DAY 3/90.All Going Well .Felt Some strong Urges Today (like 2 hours ago) but was able to Conquer them-> [did 20 sit-ups and some warm-up exercises]. Kudos to ME !! - Start making tiny ripples, That’s how change begins. PEACE !!
I think imma have to avoid social media for now, i was scrolling then i saw this chick and couldn't contain myself i masturbate but didn't orgasm tho, now in day 9 (67 points) Everytime i look at to porn,nudes,etc -5 points Everytime i masturbate -10 points Everytime i touch my genitals -3 points If my point hits to zero I'm going back to day 1 DAY 8/90( Day 9 in progress)(of no O) DAY 0/90( Of No PM) DAY 3[✓] DAY 7[✓] DAY 10[] DAY 14[] DAY 21[] DAY 32[] DAY 64[] DAY 82[] DAY 90[]
We can talk sometimes about this addiction and how it destroys our life, talk things that make us orgasm.
Day 15 is coming to a close, had a ton of urges today but laughed and shrugged it out. Will power is increasing. Let's stay strong fellas. Keep pushing.
Check in every day,read the posts , no half measures i.e. go to any lengths to maintain abstinence, and try to develop a way of life based on spiritual principles. At least that's what works for me....when I get away from that I fall.
11 days of my cleanest abstinence to date. It's much easier and my head feels much clearer in surrendering lust completely. In the past I tried to abstain from pmo while still going on hookup sites, dirty chatting with women and indulging in sexual fantasy. I was consumed with lust trying to not pmo. It was very hard and possibly pointless. For me it has to be all the way, one way or the other. One day at a time.
Thanks for the help. I am going to try implement certain measures and other things that may help me get distracted from my goal.
Day 4. Whew, despite all the cravings and processing yesterday, I kinda had an ok sleep and woke up early in the morning. I'm feeling well so far. Let's see how this goes.
