Day 24, Controlled a nightfall somehow, and it made me happy. Anyways looking forward to conquer everyday with determination!
Day 0 - I fapped again. My only current situation where I act out is when I wake up in my bed in the middle of the night and feel extremely horny. (anyone else too?) It's a state between consciousness and sleep. My excuses where "You don't need to pay any money for that", "It feels really good", "It's healthy", "You will feel amazing", but I know these aren't true. I will feel worse after I act out, it destroys my need for real women, it costs me energy and self-respect. I start doing active recovery routines starting tomorrow until the 90-Days are over. It's very important to me to do active recovery not just passive, it's all about commitment. How much time and energy will you invest?
Day 5: I had urges and i almost gave in but i am glad i did not. They strike again and again but i need to take control of this habit and in time i know i will.
Day 6...I fought hard at work today...I do floor maintenance at Rite aid and I did my best to keep my eyes focused on my job and not the magazine covers...in the past I used to see the girls on the covers and want to google them later (which only led to masturbation) anyway I survived the ordeal and made it home without the desire of googling anything... On a side note, last night I took my first cold shower...it was miserable I really felt the shrinkage!!! But I felt rather refreshed long afterwards and I am going to try it again later today...
Day 7/90 starting to feel all the emotions coming back. Just waking up with a bit more energy and sometimes getting a bit frustrated for no reason. Still going strong, looking forward for the 14 day mark.