Hey guys, I'm a 29 year old gay male who's been watching sissy hypnos for several years. These are the type that usually have subliminal messages inciting the viewers to be extra feminine and slutty etc. So, I've always identified myself as a gay male since I was 13, and though I like men, i never saw myself as a woman or less than a man. That slowly has changed from what I believe is due to the sissy hypno videos. I've been feminizing myself by getting my bellybutton pierced (something I found was in one of the subliminal messages in the videos) got feminine tattoos and now am considering whether to start hormone therapy. Lately, i feel so ashamed of myself and more confused about whether I'm trans or not. I can't see myself in the role of a man and most guys i try to date find me too feminine (gay guys tend to like masculine guys, so yeah). I have stopped watching porn but this feeling keeps haunting me and I've never been so close to giving in. Spoiler: Trigger Warning Lastly, as you can see in the picture above(trigger warning), I've got my bellybutton pierced which I could always take the piercing out leaving a small scar, but at least I can hide it. The tattoo however is something permanent and feminine? I mean to me it looks normal now(which might be due to the brainwashing) but i know it's not a common tattoo on guys and it usually attracts questions. What should I do?