Another attempt at 90 day challenge

I am in my early 30s and I have been addicted to masturbation from early teenage. I am not one of the people who got pulled into this due to access to high speed internet. Infact, I am not addicted to porn at the moment or never have been in the last 5 years but still have trouble in other forms of sexual addiction.
I have never really understood why I got into this or why I easily got addicted to it. I have always been attributing this to my troubled childhood but I dont know if thats even the case. Maybe its just my mental weakness which makes me give into this so easily.

This addiction to masturbation has given me ED and also troubled relationship.

I have attempted the 90 day challenge multiple times in the past and failed. This time the drive to achieve this is much more than before and I am hoping all the lessons learnt from the past failures would help in guiding me in dodging the temptation to do it.

I started this journey on 8th Oct 2022. Before the start of this attempt, I had done it so much and pushed my limits a lot that 1st two days were not that tough to stop myself from touching. But then yesterday I had a huge temptation that I had to struggle to resist. End of the day I did survive yesterday. One of many challenges that I am going to face in this journey.

I have not been comfortable talking about this with anyone in my life and I dont intend to change this in the future as well. I dont believe people in my life can understand what I am going through and I dont intend to be judged for this. But there was a thought in my mind that maybe sharing abt this would help reduce my burden during the challenge or help in any other way. For this reason, I have decided to share my journey here in this forum and talk more about things related to my addiction, past attempts and my understandings of them.