BEAT YOUR LONGEST STREAK

0/90

Made it 60 days but this whole last week has been one big struggle and I finally succumbed to the temptation this morning. My mindset has been especially skewed the last 3 days are so. Not sure where my head even is right now. Still stressed.

 

I'm trying to unravel all that right now. I know that if I don't, I'm going to be stuck in this place for a while which I definitely don't want. This last week I've been battling strong urges and also harboring romantic hopes amidst a lot of frustration. I've traded in my hard-earned strength for something between a wish and a mirage. The irony is that fixating on thoughts of sex, and the loss of concentration and determination that came from it over the last few days, ultimately pushed the reality of it further away for the time being. I had built up quite a lot of confidence from my streak over the last couple months and I'm feeling a loss of that now. But I've also built a lot of great habits over the last 2 months+ so thankfully my good habit portfolio is well-diversified and no single streak being broken will keep me down for long! Here's to getting back on track and kicking bad habits to curb where they belong for good. I think that if I've been meditating all this time, I would have had clearer insights into the tricks my mind was trying to play these last few days. I'm going to add meditation to my good habits for now on. It's served me very well in the past as far as mental health and clarity of thought goes.

 

2/90

 

8/90

 

9/90

 

10/90

 

Seems like a great challenge to keep me motivated.

day 0/38 (Streak broken on 28-12-2019)