I am back to the challenge again. I have overcome the embarrassment and shame of my last relapse and am ready to break my new record of 58 days. 6/58
day 61 of 66. almost there brothers. striding strong. bonus for all of you to celebrate my 60 days mark of freedom: if i get to time travel and told myself, the one change i'd make to change the outcome of my struggle drastically is love. love beats lust all the time. imagining my sweet lil' sister in the x rated movies wouldn't be great for my masturbation session. the reason is i love her and i wouldn't want that to change to something ugly. and for me, as a Christian, i do love my God because he has done unimaginable goodness for me. and that is both strong source and flow of love. i can't do it to him, to my sweet 'lil sister, also to myself. we're built to create and take care of the Eden. not to destroy for our own satisfaction. remember who i am, remember what Jesus did, remember who i'm about to objectify. never lust after her. love her. love them with all your hurting heart.
Day 1 of 22. Starting again, give it a try, be patient. Observe my thoughts. Less phone, less sugar. Acceptance, peace of mind, better sleep hygiene, breathe, meditate (only 10 min, only 5, only couple of conscious breaths!), don't curse and freak out if someone in front of you is driving 2 mph less than you want them to, etc. etc. XD And... No expectations. I wish you all the best!
