Hello my dear Brothers and Sisters. 15-06-2019, my birthday. Not happy but proud. Thanking The NoFap community. THis one is kind'a long post. Why Am I not HAPPY? First of all I am a Doctor(Graduated from China). On 2018- MAY- 17 my MOTHER passed away, while fighting Breast cancer, just one month before my graduation. So this is my 2nd b'day without HER. So after her death, PMO was on the rise. I was totally out of mind. But somewhere Inside there was a Light saying stop this. So I felt guilty and thought It was my fault that she died, I couldn't save my own mother, SO what is the point of being a Doctor. From that moment , I started searching for a remedy I want to stop this PMO once in for all. A tribute to my mother. But even I failed, failed and failed. But I succeeded in the end came to NoFap, and that was the turning point in my life after 12 YEARS OF PMO. Yes, I am proud. Because,I crossed the 90 days milestone on June 13 2019. But DON'T WANT TO CELEBRATE. Because I changed all my focus, It's not the 90 days. I am feeling this freshness as a newborn, I feel so different and it's like the Universe is saying something. I want to follow celibacy. Now, I understand the power of semen retention , first Change oneself then change another one. I started a YouTube channel recently to focus all my creative ventures and for keeping myself busy for a while. Still I Have not worked as a Doctor.. 1. First week easy. 2.From day 14 to day 28 I felt depressed. 3. From day 30 to day 40 mixed urges were present.First WET DREAM. 4. From day 41 to day 50 felt like need a girlfriend material. 5. 51 to 60+ days confidence level increased, urges gone, girlfriend thought gone. 6. From day 65 to day 78(today) On flatline. zero urges, Stamina increased,Happy,good sleep. Above all I got more time, which I use for studying,spending time with my family,friends. 7. FROM DAY 78 TO TODAY(DAY 92). One day, I got angry, So I just smashed the Iphone 5s. That was a poor choice. But that day is gone,right now I am happy and Just that one day was dark. I am wishing each and everyone out their fighting PMO, that this thing is possible guys. Never listen to your brain or thoughts which says," hey you have one life just do it". THis is the biggest trap I have ever fell in my life. It was so deep that I never knew the reality. CURRENTLY FEEL LIKE FLOATING ON A BOAT IN A RIVER WITH MUSIC AND BREEZE TOUCHING MY HAIR. AWESOME. Now via my YouTube channel I am trying to help those who are addicted. Spreading the NoFap community. Be_The_CHANGE Fighters. Peace Out. A proud HUMAN, BEING VIRGIN (SORRY,IF THE -O-RGASM WAS ABOUT SEX FROM PM- O-) THANK YOU. PMO DAYS in CHINA. HOSTEL LIFE = PMO ME FROM YESTERDAY FOR the YouTube CHANNEL. DAY 91 THIS PHENOMENON ALWAYS INSPIRED ME.