Day 71 Update - 36 years old w/ PIED - **POSSIBLE TRIGGERS**

[petewete]

Today marks Day 71 of my noFap journey. I honestly didn't think I could EVER make it to 71 days but here I am. I started because I had severe PIED, a completely flaccid dead penis caused by 8 years of fapping everyday. Healing has been an extremely slow process but I believe I am inching towards normality.

This post is only about days 59 to 71. If you want to read more about my journey, here is my last update on Day 59: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/day-59-need-encouragement-pied-flatline.129406/

Day 59 to 67 - Flatline continues with random boners throughout the day. They havent been rock solid and at best I get 80% firmness. Having said that, my penis felt better and looked bigger than it has. I have started thinking less about noFap now, it has almost become a lifestyle. Fapping is not an option. I rarely have any urges to watch porn and even when I do its fairly easy to get my mind off of it. I really really want to have sex tho. (I have had sex twice in the last 71 days, once on day 40 and once on day 53). Two girls waiting in the wings for me but the fear of ED is still strong.

Day 67 to 71 - I have been waking up with really good morning wood the last three days which has been encouraging. Besides that I go in and out of flatline. I met a girl last night and we ended up making out towards the end of our date, while kissing her I got a 70% boner which was a little disappointing. I was hoping for a harder erection and sex but I stopped myself to avoid any embarrassment. In the past (before I got ED), my penis would be rock hard and ready to go, I'm not getting there yet. Another thing I have noticed is my inability to stay erect for long. I lose erections pretty quickly if I stop thinking about anything sexual.

Question: Do any of you avoid getting too intimate with a woman or avoid sex because of the fear of ED? How do you cope with that? Any advice would be very beneficial.

 

[r_ryan85]

I have pretty much exactly the same syptoms as you. Did you enter flatline after you stopped watching porn? Or did you start to have issues with erections whilst still watching porn?

 

[petewete]

I have pretty much exactly the same syptoms as you. Did you enter flatline after you stopped watching porn? Or did you start to have issues with erections whilst still watching porn?

I entered flatline right when i stopped watching porn and has been there pretty much throughout nofap. ED kicked about 2 years ago but i would watch porn to get an erection and try to feel like a man.

I have good news tho

 

[petewete]

So i just got back home from meeting this girl ive been talking to and I WAS ABLE TO PERFORM!!! Had some great sex. No ED, no DE, in fact i had to stop her about 5 times otherwise i wouldve busted within the first minute. My erection was firm, at 95% i would say. I was super worried on my way to see her but really wanted to test my progress since ive been getting morning wood the last three days.

I dont think i am 100% cured yet but i feel like its getting there. For all of those with PIED, read my posts. I hope it can motivate you. i had severe PIED, DE, an a very flaccid dead dick. I have struggled, but overcome (almost) something i didnt think i would ever overcome. 71 days ago i wouldnt have thought this in my wildest dream. Feeling great right now but lets see what happens over the next few days/weeks.

 

[Zapster21]

Well, before you post so much sexual stuff in this post, I would definitely write in the start of your posts - ***Possible Triggers***

Guys in here have a serious addiction problem and you post about sex with different girls. Please beware that many can end up relapsing because of that!

 

[Physicist]

Well, before you post so much sexual stuff in this post, I would definitely write in the start of your posts - ***Possible Triggers***

Guys in here have a serious addiction problem and you post about sex with different girls. Please beware that many can end up relapsing because of that!

Maybe don't read those posts and shut off your computer and walk out of the house?

I get the whole belief in triggers but seriously sometimes relapse need not happen over words.

@petewete Congrats, glad you are nearly there. If you got it up with porn, its only a matter of time your erection returns when you have sex. Sometimes it takes a little bit of relaxation and foreplay, but it does happen.

 

[petewete]

Well, before you post so much sexual stuff in this post, I would definitely write in the start of your posts - ***Possible Triggers***

Guys in here have a serious addiction problem and you post about sex with different girls. Please beware that many can end up relapsing because of that!

I apologize, that didnt even cross my mind. I have been detailed and descriptive only to help other guys in a similar situation, not to brag or worse, make anybody relapse. Will keep this in mind when posting in the future.

 

[Zapster21]

Maybe don't read those posts and shut off your computer and walk out of the house?

I get the whole belief in triggers but seriously sometimes relapse need not happen over words.

For someone like me, words can be triggering, especially when reading about hookups with multiple girls.

I think you must acknowledge that others feel differently about this, and have a tendency to be vulnerable to posts like these when they are trying to recover.

However, I am very happy with the progress that he has accomplished and I am sure that it is very inspirational to several of the users in this forum. Keep up the good work.

 

[r_ryan85]

So i just got back home from meeting this girl ive been talking to and I WAS ABLE TO PERFORM!!! Had some great sex. No ED, no DE, in fact i had to stop her about 5 times otherwise i wouldve busted within the first minute. My erection was firm, at 95% i would say. I was super worried on my way to see her but really wanted to test my progress since ive been getting morning wood the last three days.

I dont think i am 100% cured yet but i feel like its getting there. For all of those with PIED, read my posts. I hope it can motivate you. i had severe PIED, DE, an a very flaccid dead dick. I have struggled, but overcome (almost) something i didnt think i would ever overcome. 71 days ago i wouldnt have thought this in my wildest dream. Feeling great right now but lets see what happens over the next few days/weeks.

Wow. This is really inspiring stuff. Thanks for the update. Have you been going without masturbation as well since you started NoFap? I'm going to add no masturbation as well from now on.

 

[petewete]

Wow. This is really inspiring stuff. Thanks for the update. Have you been going without masturbation as well since you started NoFap? I'm going to add no masturbation as well from now on.

Correct. No masturbation, no porn, no touching the goods at all. I had sex three times tho, once on day 40, day 59 and day 71. The first two times, i barely got going. My PIED was pretty bad. I dont think I would recover from ED if i didnt stop everything.

 

[r_ryan85]

Correct. No masturbation, no porn, no touching the goods at all. I had sex three times tho, once on day 40, day 59 and day 71. The first two times, i barely got going. My PIED was pretty bad. I dont think I would recover from ED if i didnt stop everything.

Thanks man. I'm going to now also cut out masturbation completely. I had drastically lowered it from what I used to do, but now I will go all the way.

 

[MrW]

Correct. No masturbation, no porn, no touching the goods at all. I had sex three times tho, once on day 40, day 59 and day 71. The first two times, i barely got going. My PIED was pretty bad. I dont think I would recover from ED if i didnt stop everything.

Well done - everyone is different. For me the two key elements were the same - stopping everything :

1) Cutting out porn completely - a change in internet provider late last year helped with a difficult to turn off porn filter - I just didn't push it with them. This helped with a lot of the nagging doubt over sexuality and urination issues as I fapped a lot less HOWEVER still needed to red line my wrist to get over the edge (would have looked like Popeye if it had continued).

2) NoFAP - the 2 weeks from starting NoFAP to my intentional relapse were difficult however I started to get morning wood again during week 2 and decided to validate if my ED and difficulties finishing were over. They were and my confidence went through the roof as a direct result of the relapse (not intending that anyone else takes that route btw - it worked for me though).

Since then my attitude and drive have continued to improve allowing me to get a backlog of jobs on the "honey do" list cleared off. My relationship with my wife has improved although not yet to the point you have got to with your partners.



Petewete : You may wish to change your PMO tracker to Porn and Masturbation rather than PMO since you have O'd ! I hope to change mine soon !!!