Day 90 !!! I did it guys ! But I’m not finished yet What’s changed/ Experiencing

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Surfer760

Fapstronaut
Well, how’s it going guys, definitely think it’s about time I started this, I’m not a huge porn user but I averagely watch it about every 2 or 3 days depending on the reboot that I always want to keep restarting. I just want to know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve had sexual encounters before with girls and it goes good up until it comes to the actually cheeks clapping part. So I’ve never actually fucked. I’m 20 years old and I remember when I was younger that I would have so many sexual urges and want to be with so many cute girls and now I am not as interested or very picky and resort to porn when I have engraved it in my head that I can’t have sex a girl anymore, and I don’t want that anymore.
 
Hey welcome, I'm fairly new to the site as well but am already finding reaching out to others is hugely helpful for me in abstaining from my addiction to PMO. There is absolutely no doubt that quitting porn will be a huge help for you when it comes to having successful sexual interactions in real life.
 
fightclubfreak7 said:
Hey welcome, I'm fairly new to the site as well but am already finding reaching out to others is hugely helpful for me in abstaining from my addiction to PMO. There is absolutely no doubt that quitting porn will be a huge help for you when it comes to having successful sexual interactions in real life.
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Thanks man I appreciate it a lot I’m on a week now and I feel good I just wanna have that urge I had again I want an entire re wipe from my memory about porn I want to feel just the drive for a girl again
 
Welcome to the community. It will come back for, just give it some time brother.
 
Self healing, is it true that porn damages us in a way ? And leaves us just kind of in a warped state. Because I function properly. But I’m just curious, were humans ever suppose to look at porn in the first place, like is there a certain way of living that if one never discovered it that’s how they would live like right now.
 
So today marks day 10 since I’ve started nofap. I started this morning feeling fine but then I started feeling tingly and edgy as the day kept going. I also start experiencing back pain (has anyone else experienced this?) I also am feeling very horny and almost like bursts of energy and mild twitching almost like vibration. I feel something is triggering inside don’t know what really admiring the way girls on insta are looking more now but still haven’t looked at any porn
 
You will have days like this and some where urges are very strong. Keep focused on your plan and they will start to calm down in time.
 
Freddiefox said:
You will have days like this and some where urges are very strong. Keep focused on your plan and they will start to calm down in time.
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My libido is still low though, like I’m horny, but I’m not hard if that makes sense, also vision is very fast paced, like rapid
 
ZelmaFromHell said:
Back pain? Um, it'd help if you tell me what kind of exercise you were doing. Might've just been bad form on the squat or something related to that.
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That’s the thing I haven’t done any exercises, I haven’t been working out lately in like months but im a very athletic person, I surf, go to the gym, swim,weigh a healthy 163 body fat% 12.. but today my back started hurting like it feels like an internal pain
 
Surfer760 said:
That’s the thing I haven’t done any exercises, I haven’t been working out lately in like months but im a very athletic person, I surf, go to the gym, swim,weigh a healthy 163 body fat% 12.. but today my back started hurting like it feels like an internal pain
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I would definitely consult a doctor if it keeps happening. You never know what it could be. Maybe a wave hit you too hard and you're just a little swore, or you fell in the water wrong, you never know but I'm not a doctor! So all I can do is recommend you see someone, not google!
 
So Im making a goal for myself, ive decided that I want to fully have sex this year, I want to feel natural the way nature intended. I have this one girl I’m interested in, she’s my co worker but she has a bf I’ve heard stories of people that have actually won over girls and made them break up with their partners just because of nofap. (Her bf is an asshole too) but the point is I want to have great sex I want to have the fire, the drive, the I’m gonna do this mentality. I feel like I’ve lost that and I want it back. The flirting the chase, everything, and I’m willing to do anything. I feel like I There’s more to life than the way I’m viewing it right now and more to myself than I’ve thought.

Goals: smashing porn/ed/virginity/laziness/thoughts of depression with a hammer

*getting laid this year to a great and gorgeous girl

Ps. The back pains are gone all of a sudden
 
Day 15, this is probably the longest I’ve gone by myself since I went on a Mexico trip last year and was gone for about 2 weeks, But I broke that streak right when I got back home. I feel great I haven’t seen any huge changes I’m having very vivid dreams but not wet dreams. I’m having more motivation now I applied at a Porsche dealership just to show you guys how motivated I am rn. I don’t have any urges anymore but my libido is still low but I am getting a little bit of morning wood everyday which gives me hope.
 
Alright Day 20, so I really need your guys’ help... please any info or reassurance or just why this is happening and what I can do would be so helpful. But I suffer from HOCD like bad . The thing is I’m 100% sure I’m not gay. I think it’s a psychological thing that stems from one time when I was in high school I could’ve fucked the prom queen but my dong was just not getting up but the thing is is that I wanted to clap I wanted to have sex with her I’ve been looking at porn since I was 13 I think and I’ve been with multiple girls before alone before that happened and I knew I could’ve fucked but it just never went through but I think my ED really kicked in when that situation with that girl happened. We were both naked and she was so fine but I couldn’t get up. I started thinking am I gay? But I’ve never fantasized about a guy I have friends and you know there’s bromance but not like hardcore sexual shit. I love girls too and right now the flatline isn’t helping and the low sex drive compared to when I was younger. I want to be a dad I want a wife kids ever since I was young. Any advice ?
 
It doesn't sound like you are into guy relationship, romantically or intimately, why are you worried?
All this energy going into something you don't need to worry about, especially at this stage of recovery.
Take that energy and focus it on your healing.
 
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