Did I relapse?

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Pathofsuccess_1

Fapstronaut
Today I was watching YouTube innocently and I came across a thumbnail that may be triggering. A clothed girl and you could see her legs. I then do this thing where I try not to look but I select ‘Not interested’ in other YouTube videos. I feel fine, not much of a dopamine rush came of it. But I selected the option to get rid of it so YouTube knows next time to not show images and videos that I selected because I think they are triggering. I might be a bit paranoid about it and overreacting. But since I looked at the legs I saw in thumbnails twice but looked away quickly. Did I relapse?
 
No. It is normal to be tempted. I think your reaction was the correct one. Personally when I see something attractive I try to "bounce" my eyes immediately and look away. It's not always easy but practicing it makes it become a reflex.

To me, relapsing = M or watching P purposefully.
 
Not porn so no relapse. Porn for me is anything with a sexual activity.

I actually use different counter on the side to help me get track of various stuff. I have one for porn and one for anything sexy.

If you are determined it can be quite easy to avoid porn but sexy things it’s much harder. So if you want to stay really « pure » that could be one way.
 
I can usually stay away from any type of arousing content. But it can be especially hard for me to stay away from porn from days 20-30. That is when my urges have usually gotten extreme in the past. Now my urges are easy compared to how strong they usually are then and will be. The only battle I feel like I have is the fear of relapse. That’s why I like to make sure that I didn’t relapse from little things. Like when I linger an extra second on something I run into I worry about it for hours. I am terrified of relapse because I never want to lose the benefits I gain. They are just not worth losing, and I will not ever lose them. I won’t allow that.
 
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