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Phoenix_Strong

Phoenix_Strong

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Hey Guys,
let me start off by saying that i see myself as a REALLY messed up dude, who've been going through life without any drive, now dont get me wrong, i know what i want, like seriously detailed stuff, BUT (there is always the "but") masturbation and porn addiction has taken it's toll on me since the age of 13 or even younger ,to be honest i lost track (im 24 now). what you should know though, is that i watch huge amounts of porn, like i dont go to the universety, i have no clu what so ever what the courses i took and what they are talking about (i study civil engineering, masters degree and frankly it's amazing that i got this far in life cause i shouldn't be here right now), i struggle financially (i work part time either as a waiter or a handy man). guys i live in germany now, i came from north africa. i have a loving mother that i lie to all the time saying im studying and doing my best, and a girlfriend with whom im in a distant relationship to whom i'm also lying. Frankly i see myself as a monster, i tried stoping mastubation and porn but all my attempts are in vain the moment i face a struggle or feel depressed. guys, i'm sooo messed up that i have a test in 10 hours (it's 01:00 here in germany), for which im not even prepared. my drug? masturbation, no ending, like 5 to 6 times a day and watch all kinds of porn (regular, softcore, hardcore, feet, cuckold, sissy hypno, gay, hentai, futanari) but mostely transwoman porn (that i discovered when i was 17 or so). you can only imagine the damge that i'm doing to my body daily, from elbow to backpain etc. i get mentally damaged too, you know, low selfesteem and all that. i got a facebook account just to meet and see transwomen, and i enter chatrooms just to chat with girls or maybe meet transwomen. again, i know what you're probably thinking, "wtf is wrong with this guy", well to be honest im asking myself the same question. i tried a thousand times to stop, but every attempt till now has been a failure. guys, i just finished fapping 30 min ago, i joined this community 15 min ago, i decided to join this community 4 hours ago. guys, one thing i'm proud to say, i'm a stubborn bastard, i still wanna stop. i know the journey will be EXTREMELY hard, but im counting on the support of this community. Guys, i spoke my mind for the first time in my life, it really feels good, and it's also because i am anonymous here. you may call me "Phoenix", that's the name i chose because i wanna rise and be stronger. i hope i get to hear from you guys.
yours truly,
Phoenix Strong
i will succeed
 
Well, welcome to Nofap mate! I have to be honest, you have plenty of stuff going right now in your life. Masturbation and porn have taken a toll and seem to be there to stay for a while. But let me say, don't fret! Here they are plenty of people with way more serious cases than many of us. My advice, you need to talk to someone, but here in Nofap. Go to the accountability partner forum. There you'll find plenty of people who are willing to help others.


PMO is hard, but we are harder.
You can beat your adiction mate, you can do it!
 
We shall wait for the day to see the phoenix rising from the ashes !!!

Welcome To the NoFap Community You are now entering a judge Free zone. It's good to have you here. first off I want to congratulate you It takes a lot of courage to admit addiction to others. You're in the right path, I encourage you to read through the forums and success stories and stay motivated. Start off with small goals. Instead of PMO 6 time a day try maybe 5. Then work yourself down to just MO and so on and so forth. This is a difficult process but it's something that will be good for you in the long run. Hey man we are all in the same boat and we are all broken that's why we are here. take advantage of what this site has to offer
 
Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you. We are so glad you feel free to share your story here.

What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
 
Pacifico Man said:
Well, welcome to NoFap mate! I have to be honest, you have plenty of stuff going right now in your life. Masturbation and porn have taken a toll and seem to be there to stay for a while. But let me say, don't fret! Here they are plenty of people with way more serious cases than many of us. My advice, you need to talk to someone, but here in NoFap. Go to the accountability partner forum. There you'll find plenty of people who are willing to help others.


PMO is hard, but we are harder.
You can beat your adiction mate, you can do it!
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thx Man, i really appriciate the support!
 
SteelshoT said:
We shall wait for the day to see the phoenix rising from the ashes !!!

Welcome To the NoFap Community You are now entering a judge Free zone. It's good to have you here. first off I want to congratulate you It takes a lot of courage to admit addiction to others. You're in the right path, I encourage you to read through the forums and success stories and stay motivated. Start off with small goals. Instead of PMO 6 time a day try maybe 5. Then work yourself down to just MO and so on and so forth. This is a difficult process but it's something that will be good for you in the long run. Hey man we are all in the same boat and we are all broken that's why we are here. take advantage of what this site has to offer
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thanks for the advice, man, apprciate it! i didnt PMO today! :D
 
D . J . said:
Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you. We are so glad you feel free to share your story here.

What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
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thx man, actually, right now, i dont have no plan, i'm just concentrating on the exams that i got right now, like really focus, i mean i failed 1 semester, i dont need to fail another one, each time i feel like drifting i will come here! as for today, up until now im clean
 
Phoenix_Strong said:
Hey Guys,
let me start off by saying that i see myself as a REALLY messed up dude, who've been going through life without any drive, now dont get me wrong, i know what i want, like seriously detailed stuff, BUT (there is always the "but") masturbation and porn addiction has taken it's toll on me since the age of 13 or even younger ,to be honest i lost track (im 24 now). what you should know though, is that i watch huge amounts of porn, like i dont go to the universety, i have no clu what so ever what the courses i took and what they are talking about (i study civil engineering, masters degree and frankly it's amazing that i got this far in life cause i shouldn't be here right now), i struggle financially (i work part time either as a waiter or a handy man). guys i live in germany now, i came from north africa. i have a loving mother that i lie to all the time saying im studying and doing my best, and a girlfriend with whom im in a distant relationship to whom i'm also lying. Frankly i see myself as a monster, i tried stoping mastubation and porn but all my attempts are in vain the moment i face a struggle or feel depressed. guys, i'm sooo messed up that i have a test in 10 hours (it's 01:00 here in germany), for which im not even prepared. my drug? masturbation, no ending, like 5 to 6 times a day and watch all kinds of porn (regular, softcore, hardcore, feet, cuckold, sissy hypno, gay, hentai, futanari) but mostely transwoman porn (that i discovered when i was 17 or so). you can only imagine the damge that i'm doing to my body daily, from elbow to backpain etc. i get mentally damaged too, you know, low selfesteem and all that. i got a facebook account just to meet and see transwomen, and i enter chatrooms just to chat with girls or maybe meet transwomen. again, i know what you're probably thinking, "wtf is wrong with this guy", well to be honest im asking myself the same question. i tried a thousand times to stop, but every attempt till now has been a failure. guys, i just finished fapping 30 min ago, i joined this community 15 min ago, i decided to join this community 4 hours ago. guys, one thing i'm proud to say, i'm a stubborn bastard, i still wanna stop. i know the journey will be EXTREMELY hard, but im counting on the support of this community. Guys, i spoke my mind for the first time in my life, it really feels good, and it's also because i am anonymous here. you may call me "Phoenix", that's the name i chose because i wanna rise and be stronger. i hope i get to hear from you guys.
yours truly,
Phoenix Strong
i will succeed
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Hi,
My story is similar to yours . I'm also African and I'm an addict since a long time , I stopped for a while but I'm going back at it again recently. I just moved in a new city so it doesn't help. So I'm trying to find ways to beat that addiction ( I managed to spend months without porn once upon time ) . I tried many ways to block sites but the " incognito mode " is the problem. It's very hard not to cheat when you're horny, sad or bored. Anyways, I want to become a successful story ! I HAVE TO . Hopefully we shall both succeed
 
Vinek said:
Hi,
My story is similar to yours . I'm also African and I'm an addict since a long time , I stopped for a while but I'm going back at it again recently. I just moved in a new city so it doesn't help. So I'm trying to find ways to beat that addiction ( I managed to spend months without porn once upon time ) . I tried many ways to block sites but the " incognito mode " is the problem. It's very hard not to cheat when you're horny, sad or bored. Anyways, I want to become a successful story ! I HAVE TO . Hopefully we shall both succeed
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hey, man, our addiction is bad, seriously, we gotta wake up and stop, we can do it, we will do it, and we'll be success strories :D cause no matter how hard you fall, the important thing is to get up and keep going!!!
 
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