Hello everyone, new fapstronaut here.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Struggling-Otter, Oct 5, 2020.

  1. Struggling-Otter

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    Today I decided to stop masturbating and watching porn after more than 10 years of daily use.
    I have developed a really unhealthy addiction to porn, I ended up with some really twisted tastes, and I want to stop. It's also affecting my relationship with my gf. Masturbating is something I've done pretty much daily since I did it for the first time, and I didn't see anything wrong with it. I've spent years doing it multiple times a day. I've always felt like shit after doing it, since I rarely get real pleasure out of it nowadays. It's just an habit now, a fixation. But the straw that broke the camel's back, is that my gf found out about my strange tastes in porn. It drove home the fact that I do feel really ashamed of myself, and it's turning me into a man I don't want to become.

    I'll quit porn for good, and I'll stop masturbating for 90 days. When I get there, I want to keep rebooting indefinitely. I've spent half my life fapping daily and I've been exposed to the internet since a very young age. I really hope I can stop.
     
  2. IGY

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    Welcome to the community. :)

    Eww, that must have been awkward. Not just the porn, but the fact that you had hidden it from her. So, is she supportive in your recovery plans? Also, why "Struggling-Otter"?
     
  3. Struggling-Otter

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    It's not easy for her and I don't blame her. I feel really ashamed of myself... I know it's disgusting and I feel really low. She's being supportive, but if she feels it's too much, I understand she doesn't have to stick around. I do want to stop this porn and masturbation addiction no matter what though.

    I just like otters and I'm struggling right now so I just made my account with that in mind.
     
  4. Struggling-Otter

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    Thank you mowgs :) I hope I stick around!
     
  5. IGY

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    That is the all-important ingredient in recovery from all addictions. You have to really want to stop.
    Cool. :cool: I like owls. IGY is a song I like by Donald Fagen with an uplifting chorus.
     
  6. Struggling-Otter

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    This is the first time I'm facing reality in months. I've also been really dissociated and stopped caring about myself and everything for months before all this. I realize now and I want to talk about it, I have a problem and I want to change things. I am afraid I'm too far gone, idk if I deserve forgiveness or redemption. But I know no matter what, I can always be better.
     
  7. IGY

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    This will be a healthy part of your recovery. Go to Reboot Logs and create a thread in the appropriate age group. You can discuss your struggles, your history, your guilt, your need for redemption. I believe you deserve it whatever you've seen and whatever you have done. You are anonymous, so get it off your chest buddy. You will not be judged by your peers. :) Not the ones here anyway.
     

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