Hi everyone

Hi! I am a 29 year old male from the middle east. I found this group just yesterday after watching professor gary wilson's ted talk on porn & its damaging effect on some men. I have been doing PMO for more than a decade. Recently i have been married & i was virgin before that with zero experience/familiarity about actual sex. I have been experiencing so many of problems in bed affecting my relationship as well as my physical/mental health. I have even went to urologists for solutions only to be told after examination that there was nothing physically wrong with me, it is all psychological. I even explained to them that i was watching p for long time and now i have stopped watch it but i was still doing mo thing. To this i was simply told that stop beating off. Like I never thought of doing that & it was gonna help me.

Multiple times in my life even before marriage i have been trying to abstain from MO but 90% of the time i fail in first two days and the rare time i go past that, i can only reach 5-6 days after which i relapse back and lose control all over once again.

I have no words to explain when i saw Wilson talk about pmo & its effects on young men. My friend & colleagues are all getting married right now and everybody is having kids like 10/11 months after marriage. For a long time i thought that only i had these unique unexplainable & unthinkable weird issues. But after discovering the TED talk in which gary mentioned this wonderful support group, I was relieved to know that there are lots of guys like me & specifically from my age group who are struggling now due to years of PMO. I have been going thru the reddit & this forum thoroughly and I can relate to lot of stuff that i have read from other users

After tough few months, i overcame the PIED through sheer willpower but i have been unable to orgasm inside my wife and feel my penis is desensitized after years of hard masturbation. The PIED alone was more than enough to damage my relationship and now this desensitization has literally pushed our marriage to the rocks.

Today I have started my journey of PMO reboot. Wish me luck lest i fail myself & my loving wife again

 

Am avoiding anything with sexual content even music videos or tv episodes at the moment. Not looking at any attractive women on social media or TV cause it would also make me horny. Haven't downloaded any p or streamed one since my streak.

Also i have noticed if i don't think about sex or masturbation in the evening or before sleep, i easily overcome the urge. The first three days were hard as hell but i am improving now. Just an hour ago i was about to relapse again. Previously when masturbating, i would give in even when knowing when it is wrong but this time after few seconds i managed to shake it off & went for a run. I am finally taking the control back & i am not giving it back ever again.