I feel like a horrible person

Get rid of the Instagram then.....

 

You gotta get yourself a porn filter, it would help a lot. I also recommend you filter out your Instagram account so it wouldn't show porn.

 

Any time you relapse, you need to think about what caused you to relapse, and what you can do to prevent future relapses. From your post, it sounds like Instagram is causing problems. What can be done about that? Are you using a filter? Can you add Instagram to your list of blocked sites? If you must access Instagram, can you do it only in public settings?

What are other things you're not currently doing that would probably be helpful? Do you have any accountability partners? Are you using accountability software? Do you attend SA meetings? Do you have a variety of activities planned for times when urges strike?

It's important to think about ways to prevent future relapses, but at the same time, don't get too stressed about your failure. Just use it as a learning opportunity and remain committed to defeating PMO.

 

Get some goals, what do you want to do? where do you wanna get to?

Go to the Gym, go for a run, look after yourself physically, the results really start showing quickly if you put the effort in. I think of myself very differently now. It is great, I am back to being optimistic and sunny in my outlook. Something I had sadly lost.

 

When you find stuff like that, Put your phone down.