scorchio101
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My initial goals: A soft reboot, 2 weeks no PM, which I wish to follow with another 3 weeks of no PMO. Then who knows!
So 7 days into a soft reboot of 2 weeks no PM, (I have actually done no PMO for now) and yesterday I felt quite strange. Hard to put my finger on it, but will try. I felt mildly light headed and little disorientated. In the afternoon I felt like going home and resting, but pushed on through it. I slept well last night. I have had urges but I have been able to distance myself from any counterproductive action, by being strong and a little objective about it, which I put down to daily meditation that I have started strongly with since new year.
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My brief history.. (if you are interested!?)
Have been indulging in P&M since I was about 13 and have hardly had a break or gap of longer than about 4/5 days (crazy to think about it, even though I could be ill, I would still masturbate, seems nuts now!). I have also masturbated on cannabis for years (although not a serious user) and this made the orgasm extra strong, but I also noticed more of a hit to my "powers", and wellbeing overall was not great, not that this stopped me much.
During my 20s (I am in my early 40s now) I was really ill and dropped out of Uni. I had chronic fatigue and depression and stopped enjoying all life's activities
that I had once loved. Over 5-7 years and through good nutrition and determination I got my life back together towards my late 20s and with the help of healthy eating, TAO, colonic irrigation, fasting and generally putting my health first (yes I stopped the cannabis too) and managed a significant positive change.
(Age 27) I did try not orgasming about 15 years ago whilst reading and following TAOism (and I avoided porn too), but it did not last more than a 2-3 months, and this was not strict, simply that I would pick and choose my orgasms more carefully, whilst enjoying sex with my girlfriend (some benefit I suppose). She did not mind at first as I could go on for a long time, but eventually she worried I was not enjoying myself, so I relented and went back to normal. Normal included porn & masturabtion too, which then began interfering in my sexual appetite with her, this in hindsight was a crippling blow to an otherwise healthy relationship, which overall lasted 5 years.
My 30s were great overall and by comparison, but I still sensed I could be healthier and achieve more.
Last year was a successful one for me in a personal sense, as I achieved over 220 days no alcohol and cold showers (still going strong) and this reboot will be a new string to my bow for feeling good and enjoying life. I want to enjoy a really great relationship with my girlfriend (4 years together!
), have children and raise a family.
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I am going to Kenya next week to help people build a school and also aid with an elephant corridor, that has been built to assist the animals migrate properly without fear of road traffic (a motorway was built across their path!). I want to use this opportunity away to abstain from PMO and hope that I can handle the challenge, whilst away on foreign shores and in quite odd circumstances, this will be an unknown quantity that I hope I can manage.
I will update here to relate my progress to anyone who is interested..
Thanks for reading my story!
So 7 days into a soft reboot of 2 weeks no PM, (I have actually done no PMO for now) and yesterday I felt quite strange. Hard to put my finger on it, but will try. I felt mildly light headed and little disorientated. In the afternoon I felt like going home and resting, but pushed on through it. I slept well last night. I have had urges but I have been able to distance myself from any counterproductive action, by being strong and a little objective about it, which I put down to daily meditation that I have started strongly with since new year.
===== ===== =====
My brief history.. (if you are interested!?)
Have been indulging in P&M since I was about 13 and have hardly had a break or gap of longer than about 4/5 days (crazy to think about it, even though I could be ill, I would still masturbate, seems nuts now!). I have also masturbated on cannabis for years (although not a serious user) and this made the orgasm extra strong, but I also noticed more of a hit to my "powers", and wellbeing overall was not great, not that this stopped me much.
During my 20s (I am in my early 40s now) I was really ill and dropped out of Uni. I had chronic fatigue and depression and stopped enjoying all life's activities
that I had once loved. Over 5-7 years and through good nutrition and determination I got my life back together towards my late 20s and with the help of healthy eating, TAO, colonic irrigation, fasting and generally putting my health first (yes I stopped the cannabis too) and managed a significant positive change.(Age 27) I did try not orgasming about 15 years ago whilst reading and following TAOism (and I avoided porn too), but it did not last more than a 2-3 months, and this was not strict, simply that I would pick and choose my orgasms more carefully, whilst enjoying sex with my girlfriend (some benefit I suppose). She did not mind at first as I could go on for a long time, but eventually she worried I was not enjoying myself, so I relented and went back to normal. Normal included porn & masturabtion too, which then began interfering in my sexual appetite with her, this in hindsight was a crippling blow to an otherwise healthy relationship, which overall lasted 5 years.
My 30s were great overall and by comparison, but I still sensed I could be healthier and achieve more.
Last year was a successful one for me in a personal sense, as I achieved over 220 days no alcohol and cold showers (still going strong) and this reboot will be a new string to my bow for feeling good and enjoying life. I want to enjoy a really great relationship with my girlfriend (4 years together!
), have children and raise a family.===== ===== =====
I am going to Kenya next week to help people build a school and also aid with an elephant corridor, that has been built to assist the animals migrate properly without fear of road traffic (a motorway was built across their path!). I want to use this opportunity away to abstain from PMO and hope that I can handle the challenge, whilst away on foreign shores and in quite odd circumstances, this will be an unknown quantity that I hope I can manage.
I will update here to relate my progress to anyone who is interested..
Thanks for reading my story!
