Hello guys (and girls), First of all, I'm sorry if sometimes my english is bad because I'm french. I'd like to share with you my NF experience because sometimes I feel like I'm doing all of this for nothing and I guess I'm looking for a support. I'm Axel, 20 y/o (21 this year) and I decided in 2017 to make 2018 my NoFap Year. Eventually, I'm looking forward to live a nofap life. I'm on day 52, hard mode. At first, it was very easy. It had come to a point when I couldn't even look at myself in a mirror, I was disgusted of the guy standing in front of me. I wasn't even looking at porn, but just fapping because it has become an addiction. From day 0, I've been able to see a lot of changes, as well physically as emotionally. I feel more in control of my body, I'm feeling very good when I'm looking at myself (I think that it's a matter of self-esteem), and I feel like I have more positive thoughts. Also, I'm eating so much better now. I've almost relapsed at the beginning of February. I'm a student living in a boarding school so the Internet connection is so controlled that you can't go on any sites, which includes porn sites. So when the holidays came, I was willing to see if porn could have an effect on me, bad idea. BUT I WAS ABLE TO not masturbate. So I don't know if I can take it as a relapse for the P part (I don't think so). Now, I feel like my libido is on a rollercoaster. I'm single, didn't had sex for about 7 months now. Since day 30, sometimes I just wanted to tap very hard but I wasn't relapsing. Last week, I was thinking, "f*** it", and wasn't even able to fap, which is a good thing because now I don't feel like fapping anymore. But now, I just want to have sex so bad. Wow. So now I feel great because even if I want to, it's like I thought myself not to fap. But I feel so frustrated that sometimes I just feel sad, like something was missing. Is there anybody who feels the same ? Or somebody who has already felt like that ? Even if not, have you go advice for me ? Edit : Oh yeah also, because it's up to me, I don't consider having sex as a bad thing in NoFap. So I don't consider that having sex during 2018 will be a bad thing. Regardless (I don't know if it's the good word) of that, I would like to know what you think about having sex during NoFap.