Nearly four days in.

So my aim for zero pmo is going really well. I'm aiming to never watch porn again and going for a month of no masturbation at all. Yesterday I was out and about and I was really aware of the women I met. I was way more aware of the chemistry between us, I don't think I'm that hard on the eyes but I felt like a chick magnet. Oh my god there was this one woman and she was incredible, the problem is I believe I'm shy and not very confident, I'd love to go back and ask her out for a coffee or something.
It has been pretty easy to not masturbate, I made a bracelet to wear and it has helped. Even when im just sitting around it feels like a symbol of the promise I made myself and a sign of the effort I want to put into improving myself. I do feel like I have more energy and focus, also like an excitement about the future, which I've not felt in a long while.
I'm really glad I joined this group, if feels beneficial to be able to air my thoughts and feelings with the people here, even if nobody reads what I write.
Good luck everyone.

 

So I'm into my sixth day. It's a small number of days but feels a long time already. I've had some really nice interactions with people in this group, everyone seems positive and with good intentions and I love to be around it, good vibes. This really feels like a journey, my outlook feels radically different already. I'm expecting good things to happen to me these days instead of bad things. I feel upbeat and more content with how things are. I've had a few moments where I felt I needed to do things which would have broken my abstinence but I just sat with the feelings, usually cried, I'm hoping that instead of distracting myself with porn and masturbation I can get more into the underlying emotions that I want to avoid when they raise their head. It really feels like progress, pretty pretty pretty good.

 

Thanks buddy. Hey I'm currently reading The Alchemist, I see your Paolo Coelho quote there, love it.