Need advice about one social media urge

Reboot is going as well as can be expected. One thing that I sometimes struggle with is social media, namely Instagram.

Deleted all of my social media apps including IG but sometimes (like once every 2-3 weeks) when I'm on my PC I'll check out IG. Particularly one girl I'm attracted to there. The positive here is I haven't looked at IG for 18 days according to my browser history. It's not something that troubles me every waking moment of the day, it's extremely minor. It does still require attention.

Urges have come back today to look while I'm on my PC. Been mulling it over in my mind for the past 30 mins and have held firm so far. The reason I'm making the post is I pretty much already made up my mind that I'll definitely not go anywhere near IG.

I don't have the fear that checking her out will lead to a relapse. It's never done so during this reboot but has when I was PMO. It feels like a challenge of willpower of a different kind. Also, on the outset it seems like an 'innocent' thing but tbh even part of me thinks there's a creepy edge to it. Like, I don't use IG at all but every now and then I'll end up on it to check out this one particular girl. It feels like stalking. Although compared to P this is minor it's still a tough urge to deal with in a way.

To note, I do not in any way consider myself to be a stalker or have the tendency to behave in such a way. It *feels* like stalking but I don't believe it should be necessarily classed as such. This is just something that is making me think a little.

Any advice or thoughts welcomed

 

Thanks for the reply.

Well, it is IG so the primary reason to check out anyone is their looks. If there was an opportunity to date her though, I'd take it.

I'll have to deal with the urges first I think. Then if I still feel like it could be genuine attraction I'll make a move

 

thanks for the reply

this isn't someone I know personally. But you're right, I'll have to introduce myself before anything else

we'll see how it goes