I just want it to get out of my chest. I'm so much stuck in MO. I almost masturbate twice a day, and sometimes even more, and that's a daily routine. I know it's too much but I'm just stuck. I'm not especially addicted by Porn, because I have people to do sexting with. Sometimes I don't even want to, but boredom leads me to do so. I live at home. Jobless. So I have too much of time, and hence such an excessive habit of MO. I usually don't have enough energy to get through the day. I'm so lethargic whole day, and I think it's mostly because of excessive masturbation. I wanna upskill, learn and wanna be something good, but trust me I feel so frustrated and angry everyday. Right Now, I wanna study, but I feel frustrated when I'm unable to solve one question, and instead of looking into solution, out of frustration I start having urges. I don't know how to cope up with this. I don't face issue in talking with girls, or self confidence issues. But I'm getting obese day by day, with dark circles. And I have lost decent amount of Hairs (I'm 21) maybe that's genetic, maybe not so much. But I struggle with self confidence when I see my hairs, and imagine my future, bald. It's very scary. I don't have any gf, never had any. Because I never actually felt love for anyone, or even crush, Idk why. Also due to this excessive sexting and phone sex. I'm loosing interest in sex. Sometimes as I said I don't wanna do that, but out of boredom I do. Sometimes doing phone sex, I just give up, because I don't want to, but there are always plenty of people out there who wants to do with me, because I'm pretty good at that. And whenever I get even one text, my whole moods get change, and no matter how much I try to distract, I always feel, let's just do one final time. I'm concerned about love life and body image as well. I was always a cute guy with charming personality and smile, but I feel like I'm loosing that. I'm loosing the charm when I need it most, 20s, also I'm very young, only 21, and there's whole life out there, I don't want to be a bald obese dark circled guy. I might be too concerned about physical appearance because I love my body, I should not because that's temporary and I know that, I just want to take care of my body, my mind, soul. Oh gosh, Mind, damn. I'm getting so spoiled. Whenever I look at any beautiful girl, even at TV, it's just hard for me to resist. It's soo bad and gross. I'm also concerned about having sex in real life. I never had sex. I feel like what I become Numb for sex, just like phone sex. What if I develop premature ejaculation, ED, etc. What if I am unable to satisfy my love? God help me. or better give me power to help myself. Thanks for reading so much, appreciate your time.