Porn free 600+ days

Hello dear people. I want to share my testimony of how God delivered me from a pornography addiction.

I first discovered pornography when I was 14/15 years old. My sexuality began to emerge, and I didn't know how to deal with it. No one had told me what to do, so I started to masturbate to release the pressure. It was fun and exciting for me to watch all these naked, sexy girls online. From that age, I masturbated almost every day, and it became a habit for me. I became very shy because of it, and I had social anxiety. I had trouble talking with girls and inviting them on a date. I am still a virgin to this day, and I am waiting for God to bless me with a godly woman.

Seven years later, when I was 22 years old, I started to watch more hardcore pornographic content. I won't list all the categories, but it was wicked. The gentle vanilla sex porn wasn't that entertaining to me. It got to a point where I started to explore gay pornographic content, even though I did not consider myself gay. Regular porn didn't turn me on that much, and I wanted more. This path of sin led me to cruel, disgusting, evil content that I started consuming. I can remember a situation when I was drunk and masturbating to a gay video, and I had this thought, "What in the world am I doing, masturbating to this plastic box, watching this garbage?" But that's what any sin does to you. You always want more and never get fully satisfied.

And then one day, I discovered the Bible and Jesus Christ. I had a real born-again experience. I started praying, reading the Bible, and cried out to God to save me. God gave me his Holy Spirit. It was a very real experience, something switched in the spiritual realm. I could feel that something was different, like something had changed dramatically.

One day I prayed to God, "Please free me from this pornography sin, I don't want to do it." And some time later, when the sexual urge came, I set the video, started masturbating, and then BAM, like a wave of energy came through me. It was gentle, but I felt it. I was like, "What was that?!" And it was a moment that God supernaturally intervened and delivered me from this sin. Jesus changed my thought patterns. I had liked porn, but then I started to hate it. It became disgusting to me. I didn't want to watch it ever again.

From that moment, it wasn't all sunshine and rainbows. It was hard, very hard. But for the first time in my life, it was possible to not give in to watch porn. I was given the power of God's grace to overcome this sin. I had mood swings, I cried for no reason, and then little later, I was all happy. My body and mind were regenerating. For first 2-3 weeks my balls hurt like hell. When I had an urge, I had to go for a walk because it was very hard to be on my own when the temptation hit me. Then after a month or so, the urges to binge-watch porn started to fade out. They weren't that strong anymore.

I still struggle with masturbation temptation and have fallen around 15 times since the day of salvation, but I am free of pornography to this day thanks to God.

I've tried to stop this porn addiction on my own before, but I couldn't resist when I had a sexual urge. I managed to not watch porn and not masturbate for maybe a week at most, but I had no motivation to go past that. It was very hard for me to not give in because my sexual drive was high.

To this day it's really incredible for me that God is real and has real power to free us of sin. There's power in prayer. Maybe You will find this testimony helpful.

John 8:32 KJV
"And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."

God bless You

 

thank You for Your story AndyA

 

God is very real. There is other realm that we can't see. It's not about religion, but about living God and relationship with Him.