Yes, I'm running out of those. I have been feeling really, really bad lately. Opening my eyes in the mornings is a chore more than anything else, the only thing I enjoy is laying in my hammock, anything else is just a drag. The future is not promising, things can only have only gotten worse, last year I could use my shower, now I must use a bucket to give an example. I stopped feeling angry, I have stopped feeling a lot of things other than frustration. The worst part is I feel like some edgy teenager, but I'm an adult and adults shouldn't feel like this. I know this is not a suicide hotline but could anyone give me some reasons for wanting to live? Please don't say anything religious or "The flowers are the gift of life's bloom" or some other crap like that, it really doesn't help me.