Pathofsuccess_1
Fapstronaut
Today at about 4 pm, I was looking up destinations around the us that are fun to visit as innocent and non explicit as it gets basically. I came across Lake Tahoe and I was interested in finding out where it was. I went to the page about Lake Tahoe on google and I saw what I thought was a man in a kayak or something, I wasn’t sure if it was a woman. I stared closer out of PURE curiosity (not sexual curiosity) for a few more seconds, at the time I honestly just could not tell what it was that I was looking at. But being sensitive on hard mode I started getting oddly aroused (I am 100% straight) and it could have been my mind thinking it was something explicit. Once I realized this was happening I closed the tabs and took a nap. Seeing how it oddly aroused me and I’m wasn’t sure what it was and I was also not sure if it was my brain tricking me into wanting to look more and get aroused if it was something and as a result I had an underlying worry since.
Just a few minutes ago, In my mind I said “hey, I’m going to end this now and find out what exactly this was so I stop worrying. I knew that there was a risk of coming across something so I covered up the entire image with my hand and peeled at the figure that I wasn’t sure about. It was a woman in a bikini, standing up on a paddle board. 1. I didn’t know it was a woman. and 2. I didn’t know that person was standing up. 3. I definitely didn’t know she was in a swimsuit bikini.
I did not stare once I found out it was a woman and I definitely did not act on it. I just quickly covered it back up and exited immediately. Is this a relapse/reset? I’m going to avoid this in the future for sure and probably stop browsing the web entirely even for innocent purposes. Let me know how you'd look at this. Thanks.
Just a few minutes ago, In my mind I said “hey, I’m going to end this now and find out what exactly this was so I stop worrying. I knew that there was a risk of coming across something so I covered up the entire image with my hand and peeled at the figure that I wasn’t sure about. It was a woman in a bikini, standing up on a paddle board. 1. I didn’t know it was a woman. and 2. I didn’t know that person was standing up. 3. I definitely didn’t know she was in a swimsuit bikini.
I did not stare once I found out it was a woman and I definitely did not act on it. I just quickly covered it back up and exited immediately. Is this a relapse/reset? I’m going to avoid this in the future for sure and probably stop browsing the web entirely even for innocent purposes. Let me know how you'd look at this. Thanks.
