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Should I reset? [advice needed]

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Pathofsuccess_1, Dec 23, 2019.

  1. Pathofsuccess_1

    Pathofsuccess_1 Fapstronaut

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    Today at about 4 pm, I was looking up destinations around the us that are fun to visit as innocent and non explicit as it gets basically. I came across Lake Tahoe and I was interested in finding out where it was. I went to the page about Lake Tahoe on google and I saw what I thought was a man in a kayak or something, I wasn’t sure if it was a woman. I stared closer out of PURE curiosity (not sexual curiosity) for a few more seconds, at the time I honestly just could not tell what it was that I was looking at. But being sensitive on hard mode I started getting oddly aroused (I am 100% straight) and it could have been my mind thinking it was something explicit. Once I realized this was happening I closed the tabs and took a nap. Seeing how it oddly aroused me and I’m wasn’t sure what it was and I was also not sure if it was my brain tricking me into wanting to look more and get aroused if it was something and as a result I had an underlying worry since.

    Just a few minutes ago, In my mind I said “hey, I’m going to end this now and find out what exactly this was so I stop worrying. I knew that there was a risk of coming across something so I covered up the entire image with my hand and peeled at the figure that I wasn’t sure about. It was a woman in a bikini, standing up on a paddle board. 1. I didn’t know it was a woman. and 2. I didn’t know that person was standing up. 3. I definitely didn’t know she was in a swimsuit bikini.

    I did not stare once I found out it was a woman and I definitely did not act on it. I just quickly covered it back up and exited immediately. Is this a relapse/reset? I’m going to avoid this in the future for sure and probably stop browsing the web entirely even for innocent purposes. Let me know how you'd look at this. Thanks.
     
  2. CodeTalker

    CodeTalker Fapstronaut

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    It wasn’t porn so I don’t think this qualify. But curiosity can be a slippery slope.
     
  3. JestfulPotion57115

    JestfulPotion57115 Fapstronaut

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    It's not a relapse friend. Your mind is tricking you. Take it easy and don't panic if you see these things, the paranoia in reboot can cause a lot of stress and anxiety so just be free of that and you'll be good
     

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